You believe in ghosts and i believe in vampires
I think the best thing about the past week and more has been that i havent had to pay for any of my boose at all. I feel trailer trash-like. Just all boose infested and smokey. Lets count. Monday i drank at matts, tuesday i slept over lizs, wednesday i drank at tony despezios and carries, thursday i went to amandas hippie party and had a drink, friday drank for smoothie night at carries, saturday drank at carries with the boys, sunday went to mikes, monday drank at chappy with the boys and marshfield ladies.
Jesus.
But i was happy to see lauren and ann briefly with the howe ladytons.
Chappy is more fabulous when you get everyone drunk, destroy everything, go drunken swiming, and walk away from the flames in the night.
I really like this buffy. I almost forgot how much i like Spike. And i cant decipher whether i like him or Angel better. Angel was vicious. "But, come on now, Angel is clearly gay."- Spike. lol. But Spike was the original badass. I love how i analyze buffy.
I also like my laptop on random. Because the best music comes out that way. Im seeing some Mashups coming. WOAH Jude Harrison.
So i like this new me. Its a little reserved, still insane, more girly, a bit more confident. Not by much. I solve more of my problems, take care of myself more, more responsible, cut my hair, but you cant tell unless its down, and ive been packing like woah. Ive just been more determined.
Im embracing Umassdartmouth with all ive got, and it better not reject me.
Im not really afraid of the silly things anymore. Im just doing it.
Im also eating better. thank goodness. well aside from that mcgriddle vaughn brought me at 4am. but that was drunk food.
Speaking of Vaughn, he slept over because he couldnt go home. It was nice because we just slept. It was not nice because lately im not used to sharing a bed with someone unless its Elliott James. I couldnt sleep for awhile. I stayed awake watching a slideshow of all the times i miss with Ell, just forming right about my eyes, dancing. Finally the mind and the heart agree on something.
ive been trashy lately. Just because of all the drinking. I plan on slowing it down a bit. You dont have to tell me to be careful, or that youre worried. Its been noted. Everyone is leaving, and everyone wants a big bang.
Woah! i have to delete my aol on saturday. And my livejournal. Actually i dont think im going to delete my livejournal, because i like to read the old entries. Ill just have to retire it. That parting entry should be a doosy.
Im looking wide eyed, and i see no ending.
Thursday is the last hurrah with the Fredd's. Sad to know Elliott James will not be by my side. Its not the same without him.
Haha theres something about being barely awake that makes it erotic.
I cant wait to find .... YOU!
♥
_love to hate, hate to me_
Jesus.
But i was happy to see lauren and ann briefly with the howe ladytons.
Chappy is more fabulous when you get everyone drunk, destroy everything, go drunken swiming, and walk away from the flames in the night.
I really like this buffy. I almost forgot how much i like Spike. And i cant decipher whether i like him or Angel better. Angel was vicious. "But, come on now, Angel is clearly gay."- Spike. lol. But Spike was the original badass. I love how i analyze buffy.
I also like my laptop on random. Because the best music comes out that way. Im seeing some Mashups coming. WOAH Jude Harrison.
So i like this new me. Its a little reserved, still insane, more girly, a bit more confident. Not by much. I solve more of my problems, take care of myself more, more responsible, cut my hair, but you cant tell unless its down, and ive been packing like woah. Ive just been more determined.
Im embracing Umassdartmouth with all ive got, and it better not reject me.
Im not really afraid of the silly things anymore. Im just doing it.
Im also eating better. thank goodness. well aside from that mcgriddle vaughn brought me at 4am. but that was drunk food.
Speaking of Vaughn, he slept over because he couldnt go home. It was nice because we just slept. It was not nice because lately im not used to sharing a bed with someone unless its Elliott James. I couldnt sleep for awhile. I stayed awake watching a slideshow of all the times i miss with Ell, just forming right about my eyes, dancing. Finally the mind and the heart agree on something.
ive been trashy lately. Just because of all the drinking. I plan on slowing it down a bit. You dont have to tell me to be careful, or that youre worried. Its been noted. Everyone is leaving, and everyone wants a big bang.
Woah! i have to delete my aol on saturday. And my livejournal. Actually i dont think im going to delete my livejournal, because i like to read the old entries. Ill just have to retire it. That parting entry should be a doosy.
Im looking wide eyed, and i see no ending.
Thursday is the last hurrah with the Fredd's. Sad to know Elliott James will not be by my side. Its not the same without him.
Haha theres something about being barely awake that makes it erotic.
I cant wait to find .... YOU!
♥
_love to hate, hate to me_