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Gambling has sadly loosened it's hold over me...when will I feel that obsession again? Now I'm filling up that space with all my past interests. Cooking, fabric, reddit, hikes. Problems abound. My brother who leans from being okay to an outright asshole has had a restraining order placed on him by his family which he broke recently by going back home and the police were called and now he's in jail. I don't want to know anymore details I haven't spoken to my brother since my parents died a few years ago. He's been calling Mario cell phone and possibly my home phone but I haven't answered the phone and Mario hasn't returned phone call. My oldest sister who he is very tight with can't take him in because her husband won't allow it. Her husband has recently come into some money and my sister Loves money so she is finding it very difficult to go against her husband. Both my older brother and my older sister are very immature I've come to realize. since my parents have died they have nobody to fix their messes and I cannot believe they are calling me in my other sister. In the Korean culture you just don't rely on your younger siblings to fix your messes. This is all really embarrassing. I've lost a lot of respect for them. Now I see them as people who were totally handicapped by Korean parents that gave them everything and taught them nothing. The oldest sister has been calling my widow sister to force her to take my brother in but they have a very bad relationship it's out of the question that he stay with the with her.. Out of the question, so for her to ask is really really really outrageous. After I heard all this from the widow, I absolutely did not answer my phone. There is no way that I'm going to talk to my oldest sister while she's in this crazy desperate frame of mind. The way i view it as an adult is that they are little ridiculous immature dumb shits trying to unload their drama on people who don't think that there is a drama. This is not something where you have to help a family member, this is not a desperate situation. I was thinking about what my parents would say and I really think they will tell me to do exactly what I'm doing now. I feel pity now for my parents because I now recall the used to complain about the oldest children and comment on how they wish they could get away from them. Now I understand.