anxiety
I had a dream last night I was at Chad's house. Linda hugged me, and told me she forgave me, and Chad told me he still loved me. We were together again, we were happy, and for a split second when I woke up this morning my heart felt whole again. What a devastating blow to realize it was only a dream. I feel more alone now than I have in a very long time. My heart hurts so much it's difficult to breathe, and no matter how much I try I can't forget, I can't stop it. I have no one to tell me they understand, no one I can talk to about it. No one that cares.
How could I have screwed up my life so bad?
I see Scott and his new girlfriend are happy, Em and her new boyfriend happy. Laura has found someone new and moved on, and Chad seems the happiest he's ever been. I don't understand how he could have felt the same for me all those years and then just move on. Just find someone new and be happy. It's fucking killing me.
Why can't he see what this is doing to me?
I hate myself every day I wake up, and every night I go to sleep replaying those few days over and over in my head. I hate everything I have become.
How could I have screwed up my life so bad?
I see Scott and his new girlfriend are happy, Em and her new boyfriend happy. Laura has found someone new and moved on, and Chad seems the happiest he's ever been. I don't understand how he could have felt the same for me all those years and then just move on. Just find someone new and be happy. It's fucking killing me.
Why can't he see what this is doing to me?
I hate myself every day I wake up, and every night I go to sleep replaying those few days over and over in my head. I hate everything I have become.