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i cant even comprehend life right now.
nothing makes sense.
nothing seems worthwhile.
"oh dear God i dont feel alive"
comfort came through, but only turned out to leave me feeling more alone than i did before.
what a fucking mistake.
what a mess i feel i've made of my life.
i slept from 430-11 last night, woke up.
couldnt eat, felt completely drained and had the fucking ingenious idea to work things out.
oddly enough things got worked out.
i was almost too tired to fight it.
today seems meaningless, and i cant get the images of yesterday out of my head.
im still in complete and total shock.
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nothing makes sense.
nothing seems worthwhile.
"oh dear God i dont feel alive"
comfort came through, but only turned out to leave me feeling more alone than i did before.
what a fucking mistake.
what a mess i feel i've made of my life.
i slept from 430-11 last night, woke up.
couldnt eat, felt completely drained and had the fucking ingenious idea to work things out.
oddly enough things got worked out.
i was almost too tired to fight it.
today seems meaningless, and i cant get the images of yesterday out of my head.
im still in complete and total shock.
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