Guess what, I am not perfect.
In fact 11 years ago I turned 18 and made a horrible mistake, only I didn't realize how wrong it was for me in the beginning. By the time I did a few years later I felt it was too late. I couldn't simply undo this with nobody getting hurt.So I changed by way of thinking, I did the one thing that I thought would fix it all, put on a big fake smile and prepared to live happily ever after. You know the fairy tale right. Well it is bullshit.I have tried to be that woman who really wanted all this, the hubby who rules the home, the house with a fenced in yard where the 2.5 kids and dog can play. I gotta tell ya lately it ain't feeling like me at all. I love my daughter. I will always be thankful for her, But I do not want more children. I do not want to be with a man who thinks he rules his home and I am supposed to smile and obey. I do not want to give sexual favors when I am not in the mood and get little to nothing out of it. I think maybe I am saying I do not like being a wife? I dunno. I have so many regrets. I sold myself out to some one elses dream.