Manic March
I apologize for the lack of updates. I had issues with my internet, then I had to switch companies, then I had issues with only some websites (LJ included) so for awhile I gave up even trying to get on this site. But now its working! Yay! Life has been so incredibly insane lately but also incredibly wonderful. Work is going great. I love my job so much. I love my co-workers. We had one 'rotten apple' in the bunch but as luck would have it, she got a new job and she left us last Friday. I don't think anyone misses her and I feel like our department is much happier with her gone. Our boss moved over to our office and at first we thought it would suck but she is awesome. I love her and I don't mind it at all when shes around. She's hysterical. It helps that she is my age and understands my humor.
My family is great. My grandpa is having health issues but he seems to be on the mend thank goodness. My parents are awesome. They are really coming around with the fact that I have a girlfriend. My mom is actually looking forward to meeting her and all she said was "if you're happy then I am happy. And you are obviously happy and that is all that matters to me." I'm glad my parents have come around. I hope it gets easier for them. I know that its probably hard at first and I am trying to be as understanding as possible.
My goal for 2011 was to try to be as positive and as happy as possible. I might as well act like January never happened (who can blame me though, look how 2010 ended, I mean, THE LAST DAY of 2010 I was dumped). And I have fought and fought and cried and fought some more and you guys have no idea how good it feels! My life is so great right now. People have really noticed and have gone out of their way to tell me "I can see how positive you are now. Keep it up." One sad thing about 2011 is that I did lose a friend. Some of it is my fault, I take some of the blame for it. But it was a long time coming. The only thing I am not sorry about is that I'm just not sorry enough. I don't miss her and her constant negativity. It was so draining being her friend.
Angie and I are doing so great. She is one of the most wonderful people I have ever met. I love our relationship. Its the strangest thing. We just fit so well. We never run out of things to talk about. We love the same movies, the same music. All we do together is laugh. We'll lay in bed talking until the wee hours of the morning and pour our hearts out to each other. I told her a few weeks ago "this is intimacy. And its weird because its something I've never had before". I met all of her friends last weekend. They are awesome. And they (thankfully) liked me. I met her family, her parents are really nice. We spend every weekend together (well Saturdays we do, Fridays are normally days for hanging out with friends or just nights for ourselves). I don't know. I don't know what it is about her that makes her so special. But whatever 'it' is she has it. There is no wondering with her. I look at people around me, people who have been with their spouses or significant others for years and how they are with each other. So comfortable with each other. But they still say "I love you" and "I miss you" when they aren't together. Isn't that something you always want to hear no matter how long you've been with someone? I know when I was in my last relationship I was told I should know it, I shouldn't have to hear it all the time. Whats so great about Angie is that there is no wondering and no questioning because she tells me with no qualms about it 'I miss you'. Thats how it should be. I don't like to compare relationships because all are special in one way or another. But in this one, I see so much what I was lacking in the last one. I don't regret anything about my time with Nea. But I do have to say that now I see and now I can say that I am truly happy its over. It never had this passion and this fire that I have with Angie. But I learned a LOT in my time with Nea. Mostly about myself. And sadly what I don't want in a relationship and warning signs from here on out. I don't know what the future has for Angie and I. But I sure do hope its something wonderful.
Also...I got a new digital camera for my birthday from Angie. It is the most gorgeous thing alive and its a 14x zoom which makes me happy. I'll post a picture later!
I'm procrastinating. I'm meeting up with my friends for dinner (St Louis Bread Co!) and Borders because I am in need of new books (not really but Borders is the equivalent to a crack house for me so just go with it...).
Happy Friday!