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I have been with my boyfriend for almost six years - we were high school sweethearts.
He decided to spend the summer abroad and has left me to my own devices. His absence has amplified the discontent I have had regarding our relationship.
I met someone else while he has been away. At this point I am not investing emotions into this man, but I have allowed myself to indulge in him physically. The craving I have for him has exceeded any amount of desire I've ever had for any other person before him.
This affair has made me question the certainty I used to have about my boyfriend. I love him still... but this affair wouldn't have happened if there was nothing wrong, would it?
I am torn between staying in the comfort of a 6 year relationship and having the freedom to explore life without him. I am in my early 20's and have been dependent on my boyfriend for so long. I used to think I was ready to get married and settle down into the typical dog and 2.5 kids type of life... but seeing how my life could be without the ties of a committed relationship has made me realize I have yet so much to experience. I am not ready to resign my life to a routine (which is what my relationship with my boyfriend has become).
Any words of wisdom are greatly appreciated.
He decided to spend the summer abroad and has left me to my own devices. His absence has amplified the discontent I have had regarding our relationship.
I met someone else while he has been away. At this point I am not investing emotions into this man, but I have allowed myself to indulge in him physically. The craving I have for him has exceeded any amount of desire I've ever had for any other person before him.
This affair has made me question the certainty I used to have about my boyfriend. I love him still... but this affair wouldn't have happened if there was nothing wrong, would it?
I am torn between staying in the comfort of a 6 year relationship and having the freedom to explore life without him. I am in my early 20's and have been dependent on my boyfriend for so long. I used to think I was ready to get married and settle down into the typical dog and 2.5 kids type of life... but seeing how my life could be without the ties of a committed relationship has made me realize I have yet so much to experience. I am not ready to resign my life to a routine (which is what my relationship with my boyfriend has become).
Any words of wisdom are greatly appreciated.