this is the start to a possibly long drawn out story......
i'll make a long story short and you can ask questions later if you need me to fill in the blanks.
how the hell do you make a long story short? shit. bare with me here.......
i have known this married man for about 7 years. [known]. i was 18 when i first met him. he helped my aunts husband move stuff into my house, where i still currently live. of course i really had no connection with him other than that. he was a good friend of my aunts THEN husband [they are now divorced]. this guy remained friends with my aunt because she knew his wife and their kids were playmates. well, memorial weekend my aunt asked me if i wanted to go on a trip with her somewhere, she mentioned sean [married guy] would be there because his kids were in a baseball tournament in the area. i asked her who sean was and she reminded me by saying he was the guy who helped move my stuff into my house back in the day. im 25 now so it's been an easy 7+ yrs. since ive seen the guy.
in any event we went to this place for the weekend and i felt a chemistry with him instantly. i think he felt it too because we have sorta kinda been coversatin lately. but i have a lot to do with that. you see... he has a son from a previous relationship before his marriage. this guy is about 20 or so... he had been hitting on me the entire weekend, i didnt give in because well, he's young. that aside he is very mature for his age so it came as a shock to hear how old he was. well, before we left to go back home [we left before they did]. i gave his son my number.. but in doing that the only thought in my head was.. "how am i going to keep a connection to sean without my aunt knowing?" the only way i knew how was to give his son my number. his son is visiting for mississippi for the summer and should be returning home sometime in august.
i took pictures of the tournament and told sean i would print pictures and give them to him. that has been our key excuse of talking lately. "when can i stop by and give him the pictures" etc. this whole time i have secretly been lusting after sean... he finally busted out in our last conversation and asked me what i felt about his son.... then after i answered.. i feel nothing, he's young and he is just cool to talk to ... he asked me how i felt about him. i told him i had been thinking about him a lot and it was complicated because of the obstacles. [i knew this guy was unhappy in his marriage and has been for sometime]. i knew damn well i was manipulating him or "seducing him". that was my plan this whole time. but i feel so awful all at once. ive used his son, im ignoring that he's married... and i feel so selfish its unbelieavable. but at the same time he told me that he was kinda feelin' me. so now its to the point where we are planning on a time to get together.. or take a trip together... he travels in his work. im sorta trippin only cuz we are keeping this from so many people. -- his son, his wife and kids, my aunt. its draining.. but OH SO EXCITING!!!! nothing has really started except for harmless conversations over the phone. i havent seen him since the last time i picked up his son to hang out. which was like.... pshh a month ago. i know he finds me intriguing because i am a very intriuging person. i just dont really know what im doing. -- im also seeing someone myself... its not really serious.. but all the same.
anyone else in a situation simular to this or heard of any? i think im just seeking opinions on what i should do really.
if you want more updates on this i will probably be updating my journal about it frequently. comments are apprecaited. be gental.
how the hell do you make a long story short? shit. bare with me here.......
i have known this married man for about 7 years. [known]. i was 18 when i first met him. he helped my aunts husband move stuff into my house, where i still currently live. of course i really had no connection with him other than that. he was a good friend of my aunts THEN husband [they are now divorced]. this guy remained friends with my aunt because she knew his wife and their kids were playmates. well, memorial weekend my aunt asked me if i wanted to go on a trip with her somewhere, she mentioned sean [married guy] would be there because his kids were in a baseball tournament in the area. i asked her who sean was and she reminded me by saying he was the guy who helped move my stuff into my house back in the day. im 25 now so it's been an easy 7+ yrs. since ive seen the guy.
in any event we went to this place for the weekend and i felt a chemistry with him instantly. i think he felt it too because we have sorta kinda been coversatin lately. but i have a lot to do with that. you see... he has a son from a previous relationship before his marriage. this guy is about 20 or so... he had been hitting on me the entire weekend, i didnt give in because well, he's young. that aside he is very mature for his age so it came as a shock to hear how old he was. well, before we left to go back home [we left before they did]. i gave his son my number.. but in doing that the only thought in my head was.. "how am i going to keep a connection to sean without my aunt knowing?" the only way i knew how was to give his son my number. his son is visiting for mississippi for the summer and should be returning home sometime in august.
i took pictures of the tournament and told sean i would print pictures and give them to him. that has been our key excuse of talking lately. "when can i stop by and give him the pictures" etc. this whole time i have secretly been lusting after sean... he finally busted out in our last conversation and asked me what i felt about his son.... then after i answered.. i feel nothing, he's young and he is just cool to talk to ... he asked me how i felt about him. i told him i had been thinking about him a lot and it was complicated because of the obstacles. [i knew this guy was unhappy in his marriage and has been for sometime]. i knew damn well i was manipulating him or "seducing him". that was my plan this whole time. but i feel so awful all at once. ive used his son, im ignoring that he's married... and i feel so selfish its unbelieavable. but at the same time he told me that he was kinda feelin' me. so now its to the point where we are planning on a time to get together.. or take a trip together... he travels in his work. im sorta trippin only cuz we are keeping this from so many people. -- his son, his wife and kids, my aunt. its draining.. but OH SO EXCITING!!!! nothing has really started except for harmless conversations over the phone. i havent seen him since the last time i picked up his son to hang out. which was like.... pshh a month ago. i know he finds me intriguing because i am a very intriuging person. i just dont really know what im doing. -- im also seeing someone myself... its not really serious.. but all the same.
anyone else in a situation simular to this or heard of any? i think im just seeking opinions on what i should do really.
if you want more updates on this i will probably be updating my journal about it frequently. comments are apprecaited. be gental.