Previous entry deleted by me, so that I could

[desire_required]

..create a journal specifically for posts of this nature. The following is my initial post and it has been *x-posted*

I decided to create a seperate journal for these entries for obvious reasons.

I'm 30 and married almost 6 years. This is my second marriage. I'm not cheating,

Comments

[bigtomd]

You sound like you are in the exact same situation as me. You may have a bit more communication than I have. I've been looking for an affair for a while, but I also don't want to end the marriage.

[desire_required]

It is definitely a hard place to be in, especially if you are wanting to keep the marriage (like me). I can't very well expect anything positive to come towards my marriage if I seek pleasure outside of it. At the same time, the marriage is failing measurably in the pleasure department. Thus, my conundrum.

If I could get away with it, I probably would. And yes, I feel awful for that. But at this point, honesty is all I have left.

[bigtomd]

I've always believed I would never cheat on my marriage. But after too many years of boredom, too many times getting to bed only to find her asleep, all I want now is to fulfill what I missed in my early 20's.