and . . .

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and sometimes i cry until it shakes me and i can't cry any harder and i don't really have to define why i'm crying. and i can talk and pray about it with friends. and i don't have to do everything right now. but it feels invigorating to work hard for something that i want or care about.

and, when i'm thoroughly exhausted, i lie in the grass and listen to music and watch the sky go by through the trees. and i read books that make me laugh out loud on one page and gasp on the next and tear up on the third. and i scramble eggs with my friend in the morning - i will miss her for a week. and i tell my best friend something new i've learned about myself.

and i conquer a small fear. maybe next time i will move closer to conquering the big fear.

and i eat good food in good company and splurge on cold stone ice-cream. and i like families. and i take pictures. and i listen and applaud to talent that exposes grace and growth. and i sing a little too. and i pull bobby pins out of my friend's hair.

and i enjoy watching tv because i don't have to get up in the morning at any particular time.

and i thank god for - yesterday, today, tomorrow - the day that is now.