darling I am growing old, my knees are wobbly my nose is cold
'Limousine Love' was a great dissapointment, as i'm sure you all will be interested to know.
It has been four months now, and nothing has changed. i suppose i should find solace in that. really, i'm not suprised that i don't. i have realized a great many things. This college racket is sure a racket, alright, and those who go into it looking for change will change and it will be of their own doing. The kids who were the straightest in highschool go the wildest in college because they wish to shed their skins. No matter. You may be asking yourself, what do i get out of it. And i'll tell you one thing--the answer is NOT 'what i put into it', because for the love of christ, i've put in 50,000 and i'm certainly not getting any of that back, therefore that philosophy is flawed to the ears. what i have gotten out of it is the knowledge that when one desires to learn, their pursuit of knowledge must be self-driven. no professer barking at you can teach you anything that will satisfy you, because it will feel like stolen knowledge, something handed to you that you could have done without. what sticks in your mind is what you personally put into it. so i will say i'm educated under the cover of NYU, but i will know that i am the one who is responsible for whatever it is i know. this is comfort enough, i suppose. i didn't want to change when i went to college, but i did want to learn something. perhaps it's an awful theory. but god damn it, people were educated in this country before colleges existed, at least that's something. for what exactly have i learned this semester, besides how to be miserably in debt?
they tell me the first year it's more about making friends and adapting to living alone and such, and less about really learning anything. but then i think i should only pay for three years of education, and one year of being pimped into society. and for that i'd pay .50
It has been four months now, and nothing has changed. i suppose i should find solace in that. really, i'm not suprised that i don't. i have realized a great many things. This college racket is sure a racket, alright, and those who go into it looking for change will change and it will be of their own doing. The kids who were the straightest in highschool go the wildest in college because they wish to shed their skins. No matter. You may be asking yourself, what do i get out of it. And i'll tell you one thing--the answer is NOT 'what i put into it', because for the love of christ, i've put in 50,000 and i'm certainly not getting any of that back, therefore that philosophy is flawed to the ears. what i have gotten out of it is the knowledge that when one desires to learn, their pursuit of knowledge must be self-driven. no professer barking at you can teach you anything that will satisfy you, because it will feel like stolen knowledge, something handed to you that you could have done without. what sticks in your mind is what you personally put into it. so i will say i'm educated under the cover of NYU, but i will know that i am the one who is responsible for whatever it is i know. this is comfort enough, i suppose. i didn't want to change when i went to college, but i did want to learn something. perhaps it's an awful theory. but god damn it, people were educated in this country before colleges existed, at least that's something. for what exactly have i learned this semester, besides how to be miserably in debt?
they tell me the first year it's more about making friends and adapting to living alone and such, and less about really learning anything. but then i think i should only pay for three years of education, and one year of being pimped into society. and for that i'd pay .50