*NoThInG tO dO...*
So bored, nothing to do. I already cleaned my room (threw all my clothes under my bed) and it only took me 3 hours! A new record! Well, the camp is going good i suppose...exept all the kids suck horribly. And im not going tomarrow because I "forgot"...ok, im going to sleep in, but i could forget! I do get to go to a cool party for all the helpers at the end of the session tho. Its gonna be sOoOo much fun. Last year I started a HUGE game of concentration which was alot of fun! We couldnt stop laughing! Its gonna have to be a new tradition or something. But to another note, i've had something on my mind that I just need to get out. here we go...! I just feel so lonely sometimes I wish I had someone in my life who cares about me. Sometimes I just feel like no-one cares how I feel and that their problems are more important. Its not really anyone too imparticular im talking about but i have one friend that when I try to talk to them about the people I like they interupt me and start talking about the people they like and totally ignore what I am trying to say about my person so we just turn our attention to their person! I feel like they are just rubbing their person in my face! I dont really have that many friends I can really trust. I mean, I can trust most of my friends with little small stuff but with important things, I can only trust a special few. Maybe 2 or 3 of my really good friends. But I try to keep my love life to myself because I dont feel like its really anyone elses business exept my own but sometimes I just like to share with my friends how happy I am that i've found that special someone and I think they think im trying to rub it in their face too. I dont do it on purpose, its just all my friends say I need to get out more and date its just that I look for a specific guy. Im not picky if thats what you think, you should look at some of he guys i've dated! But one of my friends thought that I needed a boyfriend so despritly they set me up on a blind date! Well i'll give you a quick over view of the date...All I did was talk about how much I liked the guy I really had a crush on, but he still wanted another date...but I turned him down. I dont NEED a guy. I can get along fine without one. its just I wish I could have someone to really truely love and care about for once in my life. I havent really had anybody I really loved like that exept for one guy which I thought I had pretty deep feelings for but I found out he is moving and I dont want to start something if its only gonna end in heartache. But I dont think it was that deep of feelings. It could have been eventually, but I guess we'll never know. Well gonna split! CoMmEnT!!! Byez!