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have you ever felt incredibly jealous of something/one, with no real reason to be jealous?
i haven't felt this way in such a long time, and i do not think that i'm handling it well. i just feel really helpless about some things, you know? am i ever going to succeed? am i smart enough? will i ever get pretty enough?
so many little things. i know that some of the things that i'm worrying about is just some bs that i'm making up in my head, but the other things have been bringing me down slowly for a little while. things have just hit home.
in other good news, besides my little discrepancies about myself, i'm fabulously happy =) and i hope that i remain this happy for a good amount of time =)
i haven't felt this way in such a long time, and i do not think that i'm handling it well. i just feel really helpless about some things, you know? am i ever going to succeed? am i smart enough? will i ever get pretty enough?
so many little things. i know that some of the things that i'm worrying about is just some bs that i'm making up in my head, but the other things have been bringing me down slowly for a little while. things have just hit home.
in other good news, besides my little discrepancies about myself, i'm fabulously happy =) and i hope that i remain this happy for a good amount of time =)