still struggling
Yesterday went bad. I ate a few chocolates in the office as there was a big tin going round (someone had brought a load in for christmas). I didnt feel so bad about this because my day had been 100% raw until then. I went to they gym to make myself feel a little less guilty anyhow. Got home and K had invited J over for dinner. Really not wanting to be antisocial I made myself a variation of what they ate: They had pasta with bolognaise and cheese - I had salad with a tomato and pepper sauce (cooked). I felt ok about this because realistically I think my raw transition will be a gradual one. hmmmmm - then the wine was opened and I had a glass of red - which I also felt ok about (wine is raw!) but it still contains alcohol which is not so good. Ok from here it goes seriously downhill - i had another glass of wine and in my merry state I lost all care for my raw diet. I pigged out on several handfull of almonds and coconut, (not so bad) then opened the fridge and gorged on some left over chinese food my flatmate had (yep - all bad - fatty, cooked, meat loaded, chemical poison basically). So this morning I feel totally shit and disappointed in myself. i should have just had the one glass of wine! :(
Anyway - today is a new day and i will try again.
Anyway - today is a new day and i will try again.