Then how has it changed you? Did you pray? Do you still? Faith and hunting are not mutually exclusive. In old times they would call it another calling from God.
[She shouldn't be asking. She should already know.]
[It was hard to spark that belief in a God who felt that her father needed to be killed and John Winchester leave their life for good. But since then, Jo has given in to the temptation of someone answering her prayers, to make the world a better place. When Dean was killed and dragged away, Jo gave into the grief and misery and prayed, idly, for him to come back.
He had -- and by an angel of the Lord, no less -- but Jo had written it off as a stupendous coincidence. God wasn't actually listening. Castiel might have been, but Jo was certain he had bigger problems to deal with at the time than listening to some kid in a motel in Missouri begging for Dean Winchester to return to them.
And Dean did. And Jo was introduced to this amazing wonderful world of angels. Devils. The word of God. The Apocalypse at their doorstep. It was all real. It was all sudden. It was all right in front of them.
But Jo still couldn't bring herself to legitimately believe.]
I'm not gonna tell you why I believe, why I don't believe, or what I can believe. But I am gonna tell you that if God's up there and watching over us and dictating the entire show --
[Video // Private // Unhackable] knifetothefaceAugust 17 2011, 01:04:07 UTC
[She's quiet for a long moment, as she digests that, before Jo tightens her jaw.]
Being a Hunter's got jack shit to do with it.
[And, she pauses, as if she's going to stop there, before something inside Jo cracks a little, and everything that she has kept to herself since her arrival in Adstringendum rushes out.]
You seriously want me to put faith in a God that wants the entire planet destroyed, that wants Sam and Dean to be taken as vessels to fight some big show-down that neither of them want -- two innocent guys who do nothing but fight to keep your damn playground safe and sound, two brothers -- and two of your brothers, at that -- killing each other like fucking animals, just because he said 'let it be'?
You want me to believe in a God that lets Cas, his own kid -- the one who dragged Dean's sorry stupid ass out of Hell and had the sense to say fuck off to the Apocalypse and fights tooth and nail to make everything right again -- He lets him go so far off-track that he goes batshit insane and becomes his own God?
[Video // Private // Unhackable] expungerAugust 17 2011, 01:11:36 UTC
[She listens through it all. Yes, very good, all very interesting, etc.]
You see it from a fly's perspective.
Do you what I see, Joanna Beth Harvelle?
I see a God whose only divine interventions in two thousand years were to raise Castiel from the dead, twice. Once, he stopped the Apocalypse. Twice, he killed me in cold blood to end the war he started.
So many angels dead, and for Castiel God steps in.
The will of God is absolute, and His will is right. But from what you see alone, I cannot see how any of you ungrateful maggots are still faithless.
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[She shouldn't be asking. She should already know.]
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He had -- and by an angel of the Lord, no less -- but Jo had written it off as a stupendous coincidence. God wasn't actually listening. Castiel might have been, but Jo was certain he had bigger problems to deal with at the time than listening to some kid in a motel in Missouri begging for Dean Winchester to return to them.
And Dean did. And Jo was introduced to this amazing wonderful world of angels. Devils. The word of God. The Apocalypse at their doorstep. It was all real. It was all sudden. It was all right in front of them.
But Jo still couldn't bring herself to legitimately believe.]
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He's kind of a dick.
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The temptation to dismiss everything is strong.
But I am curious about what the presentation of proof coupled with evidence of a genuine divine intervention does to a hunter's faith.
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Being a Hunter's got jack shit to do with it.
[And, she pauses, as if she's going to stop there, before something inside Jo cracks a little, and everything that she has kept to herself since her arrival in Adstringendum rushes out.]
You seriously want me to put faith in a God that wants the entire planet destroyed, that wants Sam and Dean to be taken as vessels to fight some big show-down that neither of them want -- two innocent guys who do nothing but fight to keep your damn playground safe and sound, two brothers -- and two of your brothers, at that -- killing each other like fucking animals, just because he said 'let it be'?
You want me to believe in a God that lets Cas, his own kid -- the one who dragged Dean's sorry stupid ass out of Hell and had the sense to say fuck off to the Apocalypse and fights tooth and nail to make everything right again -- He lets him go so far off-track that he goes batshit insane and becomes his own God?
You ( ... )
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You see it from a fly's perspective.
Do you what I see, Joanna Beth Harvelle?
I see a God whose only divine interventions in two thousand years were to raise Castiel from the dead, twice. Once, he stopped the Apocalypse. Twice, he killed me in cold blood to end the war he started.
So many angels dead, and for Castiel God steps in.
The will of God is absolute, and His will is right. But from what you see alone, I cannot see how any of you ungrateful maggots are still faithless.
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