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well hello
monday sucked
tuesday i stayed home from school....jason happened to call me. i got a surprise visit fromhim and Brandon if you want details too bad. me and sami got into a HUGE fight i was angry she was concerned. it was a big misunderstanding that was caused because of GUYS. everythings ok now.
wednesday and thusday sucked ass. i hate summer school want to drop out. but i can't so i have to deal. i tried to make plans with stevie and jason which wasn't going well.
Friday came and i was looking forward to it because i was supoosed to be seeing stevie and jason and jason said it was MY NIGHT. so i was optimistic. then history came and it was all down hill from there. jason left me a message saying i couldn't spend the night. so i called him back...talked....almost in tears held them back. called sara.....didn't help. i then called stevie and it was back and forth between them. needless to say i went home. i laid in bed and read cosmo. then my mom called me and i started crying. i was angry, jealous(even if i wouldn't admit it), disappointed, hurt, and every other emotion. i was thinking while i was crying my eyes out why/ why was i crying? andit was partly because jason promised me it was going to be MY NIGHT and i wasn't getting it.and the fact that stevie was choosing his girlfgriend yet again. i was so hurt by both of them i wanted to called them both and say "i never want to fucking see you again" but i didn't but i was so hurt. at the fact they both broke promises to me. i would rather them just not make plans at all. i now am just not going to believe what people say why should i they just hurt you. nadi just get me hopes up. now i realized i was being selfish and immature with the jason part. but the whole situation sucked.
however today is a new day and i plan to make it better. even if i'm bleeding.oh well. i will get to see them and more peopleand go swimming,so it should be all good. i hope.
i was angry at myself at how i hadled the situation. and at them .i wish they didn't have grifriends because thats all that surrounds their life. jerks there are other people in the world. whatever i don't want o get mad again 3 hours befroe i see them. well i think im done venting.
have a great weekend. mwah!!
love all
monday sucked
tuesday i stayed home from school....jason happened to call me. i got a surprise visit fromhim and Brandon if you want details too bad. me and sami got into a HUGE fight i was angry she was concerned. it was a big misunderstanding that was caused because of GUYS. everythings ok now.
wednesday and thusday sucked ass. i hate summer school want to drop out. but i can't so i have to deal. i tried to make plans with stevie and jason which wasn't going well.
Friday came and i was looking forward to it because i was supoosed to be seeing stevie and jason and jason said it was MY NIGHT. so i was optimistic. then history came and it was all down hill from there. jason left me a message saying i couldn't spend the night. so i called him back...talked....almost in tears held them back. called sara.....didn't help. i then called stevie and it was back and forth between them. needless to say i went home. i laid in bed and read cosmo. then my mom called me and i started crying. i was angry, jealous(even if i wouldn't admit it), disappointed, hurt, and every other emotion. i was thinking while i was crying my eyes out why/ why was i crying? andit was partly because jason promised me it was going to be MY NIGHT and i wasn't getting it.and the fact that stevie was choosing his girlfgriend yet again. i was so hurt by both of them i wanted to called them both and say "i never want to fucking see you again" but i didn't but i was so hurt. at the fact they both broke promises to me. i would rather them just not make plans at all. i now am just not going to believe what people say why should i they just hurt you. nadi just get me hopes up. now i realized i was being selfish and immature with the jason part. but the whole situation sucked.
however today is a new day and i plan to make it better. even if i'm bleeding.oh well. i will get to see them and more peopleand go swimming,so it should be all good. i hope.
i was angry at myself at how i hadled the situation. and at them .i wish they didn't have grifriends because thats all that surrounds their life. jerks there are other people in the world. whatever i don't want o get mad again 3 hours befroe i see them. well i think im done venting.
have a great weekend. mwah!!
love all