am i the only one?
right, i been in england for 5 years now...and i went back to the states last year in april and then in october after not being there for almost 2 years...
but i am finding it harder to go home....i hate flying....i hate airports..and last time i went in oct last year ..i didnt like how i felt like an outsider..people were rather rude and getting on my nereves..
my mom keeps bugging me asking me if i am going to go home this year in october..
i dont know what to really tell her...i kept saying i dont "feel" right going..but she JUST doesnt understand how emotionally draining going home to the states for 3 weeks to a month really does to me...as in i leave at the uk airport on my OWN (as hubby cant come cuz of health reasons :-( ) then i get to the states i am fine for a few days...then when i leave to go to the airport in boston i cry and when i get back to england it takes me 3 weeks to get "over it"
it really pulls me ..cuz i want to be in two places at once and i cant!
and everytime i am there....i am sick of having to explain to them what i am saying..i am so use to the Brit way of sayings i do it automantically...
the thing is i feel like i JUST got back from the states..
and i fear i am finding it harder to even go back to the states....
at least till i am majorly homesick or something...
is there a way to get around feeling this way? i mean i do miss my family but i hate all the bull i go throu when i am there...
please tell me i am not the only one that feels like this? sometimes i feel so alone when i am like this.....i dont know how to explain to my parents what i am feeling cuz they havent a clue how much it stresses me and hurts inside when i do go..arghhhhh!!!!!
but i am finding it harder to go home....i hate flying....i hate airports..and last time i went in oct last year ..i didnt like how i felt like an outsider..people were rather rude and getting on my nereves..
my mom keeps bugging me asking me if i am going to go home this year in october..
i dont know what to really tell her...i kept saying i dont "feel" right going..but she JUST doesnt understand how emotionally draining going home to the states for 3 weeks to a month really does to me...as in i leave at the uk airport on my OWN (as hubby cant come cuz of health reasons :-( ) then i get to the states i am fine for a few days...then when i leave to go to the airport in boston i cry and when i get back to england it takes me 3 weeks to get "over it"
it really pulls me ..cuz i want to be in two places at once and i cant!
and everytime i am there....i am sick of having to explain to them what i am saying..i am so use to the Brit way of sayings i do it automantically...
the thing is i feel like i JUST got back from the states..
and i fear i am finding it harder to even go back to the states....
at least till i am majorly homesick or something...
is there a way to get around feeling this way? i mean i do miss my family but i hate all the bull i go throu when i am there...
please tell me i am not the only one that feels like this? sometimes i feel so alone when i am like this.....i dont know how to explain to my parents what i am feeling cuz they havent a clue how much it stresses me and hurts inside when i do go..arghhhhh!!!!!