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Day 8
I am not in the mood for pleasantries today. Today has been a disaster. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I haven't felt this miserable in a long time. I just feel like crying.
I wish things were different. But, how? How can I wish things were different if my mind does not want to listen to me and work with me. How can I cope like this. I hope today is a one off. Other wise I am scared. Scared because I cannot handle being this me again, not again.
I wish life was easier. It seems like it is easier for other people. People seem to be just getting on with their lives and I feel like I am the same person I was six long years ago. Does not feel like 6 years though. Feels like yesterday.
I want my mum sometimes. Even though I have blamed her in the past. I feel like I need her when I am like this. I need that comfort of the old times.
I am not in the mood for pleasantries today. Today has been a disaster. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I haven't felt this miserable in a long time. I just feel like crying.
I wish things were different. But, how? How can I wish things were different if my mind does not want to listen to me and work with me. How can I cope like this. I hope today is a one off. Other wise I am scared. Scared because I cannot handle being this me again, not again.
I wish life was easier. It seems like it is easier for other people. People seem to be just getting on with their lives and I feel like I am the same person I was six long years ago. Does not feel like 6 years though. Feels like yesterday.
I want my mum sometimes. Even though I have blamed her in the past. I feel like I need her when I am like this. I need that comfort of the old times.