You give me the tightest hold me ever did seen in my life...
Life has been going pretty well for me. Things are all straightened up with my family which has been really nice. makes me think that maybe i could live here another year and save up some more money before i go out on my own....then again, i know this probably wont last and ill be out by september trying to make ends meet lol. ehhh such is life.
Ive been in a really peaceful mood. have this calm zen going on around me. im kind of loving it! I babysat a 6 month old yesterday and tuesday. such a cutie and it was so nice to have some one on one time with a baby. makes me want one of my own real bad though...tell ya that much!
Monday night i called toronto boy...he didnt pick up but called me back like 30 minutes later and was super excited that i had called. I dont get him. he says allll the right things. and really does genuinely seem excited to speak to me, see me and whatnot...yet he doesnt tend to initiate communicating with me. and i dont have the patience to leave it till when he does it...after a week of not hearing from him i just decided fuck this im going to call him. and i did....and we spent like an hour on the phone. I'm going to see him on the 16th of july. Going down with another friend of mine and will be there for 4 days. however, he's going to vancouver on the 17th i think or the 18th. but he insist i still go downn that weekend so we can hang out my first 2 days there because if not, then it will be longer till im there and he really wants me to go asap...bleh. i really enjoy this boy. he's super adorable when we talk. tells me how much he wants to wrap his arms around me and not let go. brought up a lot of stuff about the night we met and shit so i know he does remember me...and things i had even forgotten about that night. which is kind of cute...no? here i thought he was trashed and wouldnt remember my name but he remembers details. that im half egyptian, the way my hair was, my shirt even, what i smelled like...ahhh i think i could go on and on about this guy but would like to stop now cause the more i lay out what i think or feel about him, ill just involve myself more. as it stands right now, im in a safe place. i barely know the guy. i dont have any expectations out of him except for pure fun. but sometimes i catch myself daydreaming (at his expense i guess cause he puts the thoughts in my head) about something more. ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGG@*Y#@*OYE#@OIHRI#@OUR(!#&$)(!&$&#$&
Ive been in a really peaceful mood. have this calm zen going on around me. im kind of loving it! I babysat a 6 month old yesterday and tuesday. such a cutie and it was so nice to have some one on one time with a baby. makes me want one of my own real bad though...tell ya that much!
Monday night i called toronto boy...he didnt pick up but called me back like 30 minutes later and was super excited that i had called. I dont get him. he says allll the right things. and really does genuinely seem excited to speak to me, see me and whatnot...yet he doesnt tend to initiate communicating with me. and i dont have the patience to leave it till when he does it...after a week of not hearing from him i just decided fuck this im going to call him. and i did....and we spent like an hour on the phone. I'm going to see him on the 16th of july. Going down with another friend of mine and will be there for 4 days. however, he's going to vancouver on the 17th i think or the 18th. but he insist i still go downn that weekend so we can hang out my first 2 days there because if not, then it will be longer till im there and he really wants me to go asap...bleh. i really enjoy this boy. he's super adorable when we talk. tells me how much he wants to wrap his arms around me and not let go. brought up a lot of stuff about the night we met and shit so i know he does remember me...and things i had even forgotten about that night. which is kind of cute...no? here i thought he was trashed and wouldnt remember my name but he remembers details. that im half egyptian, the way my hair was, my shirt even, what i smelled like...ahhh i think i could go on and on about this guy but would like to stop now cause the more i lay out what i think or feel about him, ill just involve myself more. as it stands right now, im in a safe place. i barely know the guy. i dont have any expectations out of him except for pure fun. but sometimes i catch myself daydreaming (at his expense i guess cause he puts the thoughts in my head) about something more. ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGG@*Y#@*OYE#@OIHRI#@OUR(!#&$)(!&$&#$&