This is my last chance, to ease, the fire...

[exoticated]

it seems there's nothing going on in my life right now. I'm kind of bored with everything and really feel i need to change some thing up. im not too sure what to change, or how to change it yet. but life just seems so...DULL! as of today, i vow to do something DIFFERENT than my normal routine, each day. Today, I am going to visit a friend and her daughter, ON A SATURDAY! this is very rare for me to do so I guess it's a start. Tomorrow, I will be going to family dinner, maybe ill smoke with them or something...i dont think i will though lol but hey! it would definitely be out of the ordinary!!!!! who knows. im just fed up of the same old routine i guess. I'm not meeting anyone worthwhile by doing the same old shit as usual. maybe ill start wearing make up every day? or flaunting my tits a little more? get some positive attention in a negative way? living in the shadows is how i feel im living at the moment. I cant stand it. time to step up and be in the spotlight damnit!!!!

The weather is gorgeous. I am going to drive with my windows down, my music blasting, my shades on and a goofy smile. toodles!