Fairytale
A simple plebian could not understand why his beloved master would die for such a cause that seems to make no sense. Yet, they choose to lock in matrimony and go along with the flow. Yet this plebian deceives his beloved master in order to save her from her own pride. Can she not see that her familiar, even with strong resentment to the war, is willing to follow her to the ends of the Earth? Yet the two have neither found rest as the world seeks to make them do what the norm is. Yet, against all the odds, this plebian outsider overlooks the fact that there are aristocrats who are full of pride. He goes beyond and views his master as a woman and not her status. With this loving gesture, his master, in all her spite, submits and acknowledges that the man has the authority. What they live for now is each other and no one else.
A fairytale, like she has always said. This is a fairytale. A strong possibility of becoming true and false or vice versa.
I am at a crossroads.Should I continue to pursue her? She has said words to me that I didn't want to hear yet I still love her for who she is. I am but a mere man, same as the plebian, but what I do not have is the resolve and the will. Yet it was a fairytale. In this world that we live in, reality bites back hard like a stake through the heart. So should I continue to pursue her? The better question is, should I continue to pursue love at all? This may sound ridiculous but I am seriously thinking of living alone for the rest of my life, until God says otherwise.
I'm afraid to fall in love again. The pain that I have experienced in this past month has cost me dearly that people are starting to notice. Yet, I long to love and be loved. I want to love her still and I want her to return that affection to me unconditionally as well. But like I said... it's a fairytale. I rarely have dreams of her ever since. I almost used to dream of her everyday and that made me happy. Now that she's gone, my dreams are empty as well. Its like being buried alive with no one hearing you should for help.
I still call her affectionate name. It just comes out of my mouth naturally even without thinking. Has she cast a spell on me that it curses me as long as I live? I can't forget about her, because I still love her dearly. Looks like I'm going to be in that situation in the Anime's that I've watched over the years. She may start to love someone else, but I will be there in the shadows, unknown to her of my existence. Still loving her, my one true love, my only love.
I miss you... so much. Why?
A fairytale, like she has always said. This is a fairytale. A strong possibility of becoming true and false or vice versa.
I am at a crossroads.Should I continue to pursue her? She has said words to me that I didn't want to hear yet I still love her for who she is. I am but a mere man, same as the plebian, but what I do not have is the resolve and the will. Yet it was a fairytale. In this world that we live in, reality bites back hard like a stake through the heart. So should I continue to pursue her? The better question is, should I continue to pursue love at all? This may sound ridiculous but I am seriously thinking of living alone for the rest of my life, until God says otherwise.
I'm afraid to fall in love again. The pain that I have experienced in this past month has cost me dearly that people are starting to notice. Yet, I long to love and be loved. I want to love her still and I want her to return that affection to me unconditionally as well. But like I said... it's a fairytale. I rarely have dreams of her ever since. I almost used to dream of her everyday and that made me happy. Now that she's gone, my dreams are empty as well. Its like being buried alive with no one hearing you should for help.
I still call her affectionate name. It just comes out of my mouth naturally even without thinking. Has she cast a spell on me that it curses me as long as I live? I can't forget about her, because I still love her dearly. Looks like I'm going to be in that situation in the Anime's that I've watched over the years. She may start to love someone else, but I will be there in the shadows, unknown to her of my existence. Still loving her, my one true love, my only love.
I miss you... so much. Why?