No Goodbye
I still have no idea how long she'll be gone. Today, all I'm doing is trying to catch a glimpse of her, listening to her speak and listening to her beautiful singing voice. She's also dressed up pretty today. She's become a bit thinner. Oh how I wish she was still mine. It has been almost 2 months since that fateful day. I still can't get over it. Maybe I will but how long? Maybe never?
I couldn't sleep last night. I started thinking about our past and how we were deeply in love. I also started thinking about those dreams I had of her. In a dream I had a few days ago, we were walking around in her old University campus. She was wearing that business-like white blouse and sort of mini-skirt. The very same dress she was wearing when I confessed my love to her for the first time. We were looking for something in that dream though we never found it because I woke up. The second dream I had which was more recently was me riding in a bus, in a different city that I have never seen before, and there I meet her. We talked casually, and out of the unexpected, she says that she was sorry. She then clings unto me and hugs me as I give her a kiss. Then I wake up.
Two different dreams of which meanings elude me. I guess whatever steps the both of us take in the future will hold the answer to these dreams. Still I couldn't sleep last night. I kept thinking of what I should do. But thats just the problem. One of the reasons why she left me. I'm all thinking and saying but no action. I'm sending her an email later on. I want to clear some stuff at least before she leaves or else I would never be at ease.
I'm hopeless...
I couldn't sleep last night. I started thinking about our past and how we were deeply in love. I also started thinking about those dreams I had of her. In a dream I had a few days ago, we were walking around in her old University campus. She was wearing that business-like white blouse and sort of mini-skirt. The very same dress she was wearing when I confessed my love to her for the first time. We were looking for something in that dream though we never found it because I woke up. The second dream I had which was more recently was me riding in a bus, in a different city that I have never seen before, and there I meet her. We talked casually, and out of the unexpected, she says that she was sorry. She then clings unto me and hugs me as I give her a kiss. Then I wake up.
Two different dreams of which meanings elude me. I guess whatever steps the both of us take in the future will hold the answer to these dreams. Still I couldn't sleep last night. I kept thinking of what I should do. But thats just the problem. One of the reasons why she left me. I'm all thinking and saying but no action. I'm sending her an email later on. I want to clear some stuff at least before she leaves or else I would never be at ease.
I'm hopeless...