What is wrong with me?
I don't know what it is. Something inside me hurts so bad, and I am terribly sad, I think, and I can't understand why. Nothing has happenned, no one has said anything, no one has done anything... so why am I hurting so bad? I want to just curl up and cry for hours, but can't do that. The only good thing about it is that I'm not thinking for once. No bad things are going through my head. I am just being. There are little things that go alond with it, but pain like this... I don't think I have ever been like this. I want it to stop so badly... I wish it would. I don't think it will though. I feel like there is a hole in me and I don't know if it will be full... I do know one thing that could fill it, but I won't have that for a while... and if you are thinking sex, you are wrong... it's not that. Ugg... I need to just stop talking because it's not making it any better. He was right... thinking about it and trying to identify it doesn't make it any better. So I guess, for now, I will just hurt.