GACKT's LINE Message - June 3, 2012
Sorry to my friends who left a comment for my personal entry about taking a trip to Nashville, I'm hoping to comment back.... soon... <^^;;
今日は変な夢を見てうなされて目が覚めてしまった。良くわからん夢だった。でも鮮明に覚えている。後味が本当に悪い夢だ。何故、夢の中であんな事をしてしまったのか･･･と、起きてからえらい落ち込んでしまった。周りにこのことを話したら、夢を気にするんですか？と呆れられた。うーん、気にはしてない。だが、いつもは自分が見る良い夢に関しては自分の好きなように、自分の思ったとおりに話を作っていける。だが、嫌な夢や悪い夢は自分の思ったとおりに行かない。何故だろう･･･。いつも、この気持ち悪い感じを残しながら目が覚めた後も脳裏に焼き付いている。まあ、内容そのものは大した夢ではなかったのだが自分の一番嫌いな傲慢な部分が満載の夢だった。あんなこと、する必要もなかったのに･･･、と夢の中で人を傷つけてしまった。しかも、それがスタッフだからタチが悪い。今日は、まずそのスタッフに会ったら謝ろう。とりあえず。で、変な顔されたらギュッとハグでもして「ありがと」とでも言おう。まあ、間違いなくおかしな顔されるんだろうな･･･。でも、きっとこれは何かの提示なのかもしれないな。。。一分ぐらいハグして「うーん、ありがと」とか、言ってみるかぁ。ま、周りから見たらオトコどうして抱き合ってて変なヤツだと思われるんだろうな。さて、気を取り直して、気持ちを切り替えて、墓掃除に行って来る。もうすぐ舞台稽古が始まる。しっかり安全祈願、成功祈願しなければ。死んだ爺ちゃん達にしっかり挨拶してこないとな、久しぶりだし。さぁて、今日も一日、なんくるないさァ〜〜〜〜。
Today I woke moaning from a strange dream. It was a rather incomprehensible dream. But I remember it vividly. A dream with a really bad aftertaste. I became ultra-depressed upon waking up, wondering why in the world I did something like that in my dream.... I told people about this, and they, appalled, said "You're worried about your dream?" Hmmm, it's not that I worry about it. But usually, when I'm having a good dream, I can freely make up the story to my liking. But I can't control bad dreams and dreams I don't like. I wonder why that is... [Bad dreams] always leave behind this ominous feeling [inside me], and are still burnt in my mind even after I wake up. Well, the content of the dream itself wasn't all that complicated, but it was a dream full of my arrogance, which is what I hate the most about myself. There was no reason for me to do something like that.... I hurt someone in my dream. And this was made even worse by the person being my staff. When I meet this staff member today, I will offer my apology first of all. Then, if he looks at me funny, I guess I'll give him a tight hug and say "Thanks" or something. I guess it's safe to say he'll definitely give me a funny look... But this may actually be some kind of a sign... Maybe I'll hug him for a minute or so and say "Hmmm, thanks" or something. I guess people around us will think we're strange men embracing each other. Now, I'll pull myself together, change the mood, and go clean the tombstone. The rehearsals for the play will start soon, so I have to properly pray for safety and success [for the play]. I have to pay my proper respect to my late grandfather and ancestors, especially because it's been a while. Alright, I'll pull through another day somehow~~~~~ [said in Okinawa dialect, and not in a desperate way but in a rather humorous, defiant way].
Oh, GACKT..... ;_____;♥
今日は変な夢を見てうなされて目が覚めてしまった。良くわからん夢だった。でも鮮明に覚えている。後味が本当に悪い夢だ。何故、夢の中であんな事をしてしまったのか･･･と、起きてからえらい落ち込んでしまった。周りにこのことを話したら、夢を気にするんですか？と呆れられた。うーん、気にはしてない。だが、いつもは自分が見る良い夢に関しては自分の好きなように、自分の思ったとおりに話を作っていける。だが、嫌な夢や悪い夢は自分の思ったとおりに行かない。何故だろう･･･。いつも、この気持ち悪い感じを残しながら目が覚めた後も脳裏に焼き付いている。まあ、内容そのものは大した夢ではなかったのだが自分の一番嫌いな傲慢な部分が満載の夢だった。あんなこと、する必要もなかったのに･･･、と夢の中で人を傷つけてしまった。しかも、それがスタッフだからタチが悪い。今日は、まずそのスタッフに会ったら謝ろう。とりあえず。で、変な顔されたらギュッとハグでもして「ありがと」とでも言おう。まあ、間違いなくおかしな顔されるんだろうな･･･。でも、きっとこれは何かの提示なのかもしれないな。。。一分ぐらいハグして「うーん、ありがと」とか、言ってみるかぁ。ま、周りから見たらオトコどうして抱き合ってて変なヤツだと思われるんだろうな。さて、気を取り直して、気持ちを切り替えて、墓掃除に行って来る。もうすぐ舞台稽古が始まる。しっかり安全祈願、成功祈願しなければ。死んだ爺ちゃん達にしっかり挨拶してこないとな、久しぶりだし。さぁて、今日も一日、なんくるないさァ〜〜〜〜。
Today I woke moaning from a strange dream. It was a rather incomprehensible dream. But I remember it vividly. A dream with a really bad aftertaste. I became ultra-depressed upon waking up, wondering why in the world I did something like that in my dream.... I told people about this, and they, appalled, said "You're worried about your dream?" Hmmm, it's not that I worry about it. But usually, when I'm having a good dream, I can freely make up the story to my liking. But I can't control bad dreams and dreams I don't like. I wonder why that is... [Bad dreams] always leave behind this ominous feeling [inside me], and are still burnt in my mind even after I wake up. Well, the content of the dream itself wasn't all that complicated, but it was a dream full of my arrogance, which is what I hate the most about myself. There was no reason for me to do something like that.... I hurt someone in my dream. And this was made even worse by the person being my staff. When I meet this staff member today, I will offer my apology first of all. Then, if he looks at me funny, I guess I'll give him a tight hug and say "Thanks" or something. I guess it's safe to say he'll definitely give me a funny look... But this may actually be some kind of a sign... Maybe I'll hug him for a minute or so and say "Hmmm, thanks" or something. I guess people around us will think we're strange men embracing each other. Now, I'll pull myself together, change the mood, and go clean the tombstone. The rehearsals for the play will start soon, so I have to properly pray for safety and success [for the play]. I have to pay my proper respect to my late grandfather and ancestors, especially because it's been a while. Alright, I'll pull through another day somehow~~~~~ [said in Okinawa dialect, and not in a desperate way but in a rather humorous, defiant way].
Oh, GACKT..... ;_____;♥