Random Stuffz
1. YFCz Live DVDs Cancellation by CDJapan
Since my friends have been getting refunds for their pre-orders of live YFC DVDs from CDJapan, I asked CDJapan what the deal was. And this is what I got.
Val: @CDJapan Hello. Could you tell me why the YFC DVDs have been cancelled, please?
CDJapan: @ExcusedEarly Hi ^^ We were wondering about the same thing, but we don't know what was the reason T-T
Val: @CDJapan Oh.... I wonder if the other sites will be updating their listings, too, then. Thank you for the response, though!
CDJapan: @ExcusedEarly I think they will do that eventually LOL Initially, they were going to release the DVD under different catalog numbers
CDJapan: @ExcusedEarly Then at the end of January, they announced that they are cancelling them, because they decided to release them under
CDJapan: @ExcusedEarly different catalog numbers, which they cancelled again. So, we were wondering what's happening
So, it sounds like they do think the other sites will follow suit and cancel their pre-orders, too. But who knows? Not sure why the other sites aren't doing anything now that it's been 2 days since the refunds were made by CDJapan? 9__9
I'm gonna wait on pre-ordering mine a bit longer. ^^;
2. Kinky and Melancholy Dream
I had a very strange but vivid dream this morning, but to my surprise, it had nothing to do with Magnum or JOB or YFCz (yaaaaaay :'D. This is also a cue for any of you to skip this part if you want. :D)
So, I was either a patient or an assistant to this psychologist in his 50s. He was tall, pale, well-built but not bulky, and had a handsome masculine face. And somehow, we became lovers, if we could call it that.
He was extremely methodical, manipulative, intelligent, in control, enigmatic, and S, all while maintaining his cerebral and gentleman-like mannerism. He was Caucasian, pale.
I became madly in love with him. He was like a dangerous drug that I couldn't resist.
My family and friends knew about our relationship, but never knew about the mental and physical games we played.
(Yes, I could spill on what kind of physical games went on, but I will not. ^^;;;)
This went on for....months, even a few years?
One day, we were standing face to face at a corner of a room, seemingly casually.
Then I looked intently into his eyes for a long time, slowly reached over to his right ear, and whispered into it
"I have to say good-bye."
I said this because the relationship was so messed up, I knew I couldn't stay in it any longer without going insane.
He, slightly looking a little shocked very briefly, then said
"OK" and smiled.
Then, I took his hand in mine, got on the elevator, went to the ground floor, let him off it, and waved good-bye and went back up alone.
He left in his car, and although he looked almost nonchalant about it all, I knew he was also in shock but accepted it the way he did because he loved me and he also knew our relationship was driving me insane literally. And because he knew he couldn't stop playing the dangerous games with me.
Thanks to this being a dream, I knew how he felt, and his emotions and mine collided and melted together. It was so sad.
It was a lot like the movie, 9 1/2 weeks, except that my man was taller and I wasn't gorgeous like Kim. :'D
Anyway, this dream haunted me for almost the entire day. :/
What could it mean?
3. "Diet" or "Lifestyle Change"
Some of my friends and I were talking about eating healthy, and one of them was wondering what exactly this "lifestyle change" is as opposed to a ”diet”.
This is just my understanding of it, though. :3
I've blogged about it before, but I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes during both of my pregnancies (I've lost two aunts to diabetes, and one's changed her lifestyle drastically and is healthy now). That's when I had to really open my eyes to taking better care of myself. Apparently, Asian women are more susceptible to gestational diabetes than Caucasian women. :/
I was aware of the danger but was still not taking it seriously enough until I encountered GACKT in 2009 and decided to go cold turkey on bread, noodles, and rice, the major sources of daily carb intake. For this I totally have GACKT to be grateful.
Anyway, I've been maintaining this eating style ever since then, and I lost 7 or 8 pounds. It's not that I never eat these things. I do occasionally cheat. For example, cornbread, I still eat. :D;;; And I also may tear off a small piece off of a delicious-looking roll if I really wanted to taste it. But that's about it. BUT I do have sweet tooth, and I do eat a decent amount of sweets everyday. ^^;;;;; But I allow myself some sweets so that I can maintain my current eating habit. I know it won't last if I felt deprived all the time.
All this, for me, is not a diet. Come to think of it, I don't think I've ever been on a diet because I never had to lose a lot of weight and I somehow knew it wouldn't work anyway.
I mean, the premise of a diet seems to me like it's a temporary alteration to your eating habit for the purpose of losing weight. But what about after that? I know a diet can't last too long because you know you're depriving yourself of things you enjoy.
But a lifestyle change is to change your environment for the long term, possibly the rest of your life, for your health, without involving too much sense of deprivation.
I've recently also stopped eating a bowl of cereal in the morning, which was one thing I still allowed myself to enjoy. I stopped because I could feel that it was tacking on extra fat on my body and also made me feel more groggy in the morning, especially after ovulation. Now, I eat a lot of sauteed spinach, an egg, and lots of cheese instead. It's yummy, and I lost a few more pounds since then. I also don't feel nearly as bloated between ovulation and menstruation (sorry, gentlemen :D;;;). One drawback has been the fact that I feel so much colder now. X'D;;;
When my mother, who is somehow worried about me getting fat (Oh, silly Japanese woman...) even though she's much shorter than me and yet weighs the same as me, calls and asks me "So, are you still on that diet?", this irritates me a bit, and I say "I've told you many times, it's not a DIET~!!" X'DDD
OK, that was long and random and rambly. I feel so accomplished. :D