i hope everyone got good presents and lots of love for christmas.

to continue with my recent endeavor of a hip-hop education of sorts, i asked for and received jay-z's "american gangster" as one of my christmas presents.  i am reading the lyrics b/c my brother is watching mythbusters and i can't listen to it really, but i'm excited.  for as much as ( Read more... )

i haven't had a cigarette since monday. almost an entire week. it's not a big deal. i'm glad to know it's still easy for me to quit. i always have told people that "it isn't that it's hard for me to quit. it's very easy for me to quit. it's just easier to start again," and that is probably still true. but i forgot how much easier it is to ( Read more... )

directly under this cut is a little story about a boy that i dated in high school.  we were never really "official", but because of certain circumstances, he ripped my heart out of my chest.  twice.  i always let it happen twice.  it is a curse, maybe.  i think the story itself isn't very good.  it isn't even really a story.  i just wrote down what ( Read more... )

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there are so many things i have yet to do.  there are so many things that are unfinished, and i don't just mean school.  in fact, i don't think that i mean school at all.  i have to fight for things.  i am a coward, i know, but i have to fight.  i have to prove that i want things.  i can't just curl up and hide anymore.  and has [sic] taken me a ( Read more... )

so i understand something new about online banking ( Read more... )