eggs over easy.
I'm back. My mom was right, I did have a hard year. I wonder if I'll ever fully let go. I wonder if my hopes will finally disappear and I will accept the fact that he is not coming back. I just hate walking away knowing things could have worked had he stopped allowing his pride to get in the way. But I guess that's who he is.. and I wouldn't have been able to do everything on my own.
Recently, he made me feel as if I don't deserve to find love or be loved. But that's just ridiculous. I am human & we all deserve love. Love doesn't make acceptions according to mistakes you've made in the past. Love steps right in, shines light upon those mistakes and teaches you how to grow from the past.
The problem is, I keep replaying that December night in my head. He said he missed me, he said he loved me - he acted as if nothing was wrong. He initiated things, he hugged me, he kissed me....I just don't understand why he pushes those memories out of his mind. He so quickly forgets the good and focusses on the bad. I need to stop being so emo and remind myself that life can still go on without him by my side. Yes, I will miss him & yes, nights will come along where I will have to use all of my strength to not call him, but I can make it through.
We were always on different pages. I wish we hadn't been so stupid. I wish we could both surrender and give in. I'd be willing to, but I know that he won't....ever.
No, I don't want to be the only one you know
I want to be the place you call home
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
I give much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine,
Shine a little light on my life
Warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple
Recently, he made me feel as if I don't deserve to find love or be loved. But that's just ridiculous. I am human & we all deserve love. Love doesn't make acceptions according to mistakes you've made in the past. Love steps right in, shines light upon those mistakes and teaches you how to grow from the past.
The problem is, I keep replaying that December night in my head. He said he missed me, he said he loved me - he acted as if nothing was wrong. He initiated things, he hugged me, he kissed me....I just don't understand why he pushes those memories out of his mind. He so quickly forgets the good and focusses on the bad. I need to stop being so emo and remind myself that life can still go on without him by my side. Yes, I will miss him & yes, nights will come along where I will have to use all of my strength to not call him, but I can make it through.
We were always on different pages. I wish we hadn't been so stupid. I wish we could both surrender and give in. I'd be willing to, but I know that he won't....ever.
No, I don't want to be the only one you know
I want to be the place you call home
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
I give much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine,
Shine a little light on my life
Warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple