my shitmas list
i want to live without worry.... i want to cuddle with someone... i want to be able to enjoy this time of year without tears... without mental problems...i want to be able to personally tell someone i love them and have it be said back to me with the person staring at me in the eye. i want a family that cares...i want to be able to visit my little brothers and help them with their life like i never had.... i want to give my mom and my dad money.... because then their fight would be over after 6 years....i want to be able to draw a full picture withouth crumpling it up and throwing it away in the middle of the picture...i want to fingerpaint with someone.... i want people to get off my case.... i want to be able to give all of my friends something to look forward to later in life.... so that they can say " hey... i personaly know that guy.... and he's fucking cool".... I want a wife.... a kid.... a house.... i want to be able to do what i love the rest of my life and be able to do it at home so that nothing has to get compromised....i want my dad to take back what he said to me last night.... i want to be able to grab a hold of someones face and kiss them until it hurts... i want things to be resolved in every aspect of my life...
but...
that's way too much for fuckmeintheassmas
so i'll just stick with what i got.
nothing.
but...
that's way too much for fuckmeintheassmas
so i'll just stick with what i got.
nothing.