Hopelessly hopeful
NINETEEN HOURS TIL FREEDOM!
And of course my last exam is International Relations so I feel little need or desire to study. Yet I know I will pretend to study all day tomorrow anyway, just to assauge those feelings of guilt about how I *should* be studying. And no Jon, I will not abandon my beloved fifth floor of the library, I don't care if he's there, it was mine first and will not let any boy force me to change something so fundamental to my existence.
Can't wait to finally be able to stop thinking about school. As of tomorrow at 9 PM, all I will be thinking about is packing for Ottawa and making plans for the break. Today I decided I need to start thinking of something hot to do on New Years'. The past few years NY has been a huge disappointment, and I'm not going to let that happen again. Maybe I can convince people to roadtrip it to Hamilton for the Weakerthans/Hip concert, that would be amazing!
Question of the day: Why do I continue to want what I know is bad for me? I'm seriously addicted to this kid, and I'm praying three weeks away from him will be enough to make me come to my senses. Otherwise, I know I'm going to fall back into his trap again. I can see it coming already, it's practically inevitable...
I'm so glad my Guelph and Ottawa lives are so seperate. I will actually be able to go home and not think about Guelph at all if I want to, because there are few reminders and connections to it in Ottawa. It's bizzare to think I have two completely seperate existences (actually more than two when I think about it, if I count camp)but at the same time it keeps me sane.
Why am I not asleep!?
*HAVA*
And of course my last exam is International Relations so I feel little need or desire to study. Yet I know I will pretend to study all day tomorrow anyway, just to assauge those feelings of guilt about how I *should* be studying. And no Jon, I will not abandon my beloved fifth floor of the library, I don't care if he's there, it was mine first and will not let any boy force me to change something so fundamental to my existence.
Can't wait to finally be able to stop thinking about school. As of tomorrow at 9 PM, all I will be thinking about is packing for Ottawa and making plans for the break. Today I decided I need to start thinking of something hot to do on New Years'. The past few years NY has been a huge disappointment, and I'm not going to let that happen again. Maybe I can convince people to roadtrip it to Hamilton for the Weakerthans/Hip concert, that would be amazing!
Question of the day: Why do I continue to want what I know is bad for me? I'm seriously addicted to this kid, and I'm praying three weeks away from him will be enough to make me come to my senses. Otherwise, I know I'm going to fall back into his trap again. I can see it coming already, it's practically inevitable...
I'm so glad my Guelph and Ottawa lives are so seperate. I will actually be able to go home and not think about Guelph at all if I want to, because there are few reminders and connections to it in Ottawa. It's bizzare to think I have two completely seperate existences (actually more than two when I think about it, if I count camp)but at the same time it keeps me sane.
Why am I not asleep!?
*HAVA*