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Ablart is going to Denver! D:
Mark is going to London! D:
Logie is going to Europe! D:
WHERE IS MY VACATION DAMMIT?!?!?!?
>:(
New Jersey, Canada, Denver, all dandy, but I need a break from this house, from those people, from this town, from this country.
I had my first suicidal thought in... well... forever a few days ago. Of course I wouldn't do it, but already thinking about it is a f*cking weakness. I preach about how life is worth living despite its nasty phases, but think about suicide? Well NO. But this place is depressing me.
I want to meet new people. Not people that are in some way or another connected to people I've known and likely disrespected for years and years. New people. No personal history, no rumors, no old connections.
I want to meet the people I talk to. I want to travel. I want to make experiences, I want to mature, I want to grow, I want to be given opportunities. I want to learn, I want to have fun, I want to be happy. Yes, I want. It's my life, and right now it is going to waste.
I've been drawing eagerly to finish a map to apply to certain colleges, but most of those stayed sketches save for like 4. I love drawing, but I can't seem to find the will if it's connected to staying here (Gandalf - about midway into his shirt, I started slacking.).
P.S.: I want a vacation. >:(
Mark is going to London! D:
Logie is going to Europe! D:
WHERE IS MY VACATION DAMMIT?!?!?!?
>:(
New Jersey, Canada, Denver, all dandy, but I need a break from this house, from those people, from this town, from this country.
I had my first suicidal thought in... well... forever a few days ago. Of course I wouldn't do it, but already thinking about it is a f*cking weakness. I preach about how life is worth living despite its nasty phases, but think about suicide? Well NO. But this place is depressing me.
I want to meet new people. Not people that are in some way or another connected to people I've known and likely disrespected for years and years. New people. No personal history, no rumors, no old connections.
I want to meet the people I talk to. I want to travel. I want to make experiences, I want to mature, I want to grow, I want to be given opportunities. I want to learn, I want to have fun, I want to be happy. Yes, I want. It's my life, and right now it is going to waste.
I've been drawing eagerly to finish a map to apply to certain colleges, but most of those stayed sketches save for like 4. I love drawing, but I can't seem to find the will if it's connected to staying here (Gandalf - about midway into his shirt, I started slacking.).
P.S.: I want a vacation. >:(