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I hate mood swings, especially triggered by other people, and even more if they are drunk.
What brings this entry along, you ask? Well, it is interesting to be called a loser by an alcoholic and to also have him tell you that you look like shit.
Now, normally I would have laughed and pitied him, but this certain alcoholic is my dad.
After a while, I fled to Letty's for about an hour - but I figured that if I wouldn't return the same night, I would just have to deal with it the next day. So I walked back and sure enough was asked to talk about things by my mom upon return. After some hesitation, I followed her into the living room and although the talk went rather well at first, my dad soon drifted back into his hurtful, insulting, brainless drunk talk.
Rinse, repeat for 2 hours.
Then I snapped, yelled at him, and left. Cried in my room for a while - tears of anger, mind you. Mixed with disappointment, because this person I am supposed to love proved yet again why I cannot.
He apologized this morning, as expected.
Yeah, right, that'll make the words unspoken...
I'm fine now. Not great, but okay. If I ended up calling you last night, don't mind me, I just needed to vent about it and I hope I wasn't an inconvenience.
What brings this entry along, you ask? Well, it is interesting to be called a loser by an alcoholic and to also have him tell you that you look like shit.
Now, normally I would have laughed and pitied him, but this certain alcoholic is my dad.
After a while, I fled to Letty's for about an hour - but I figured that if I wouldn't return the same night, I would just have to deal with it the next day. So I walked back and sure enough was asked to talk about things by my mom upon return. After some hesitation, I followed her into the living room and although the talk went rather well at first, my dad soon drifted back into his hurtful, insulting, brainless drunk talk.
Rinse, repeat for 2 hours.
Then I snapped, yelled at him, and left. Cried in my room for a while - tears of anger, mind you. Mixed with disappointment, because this person I am supposed to love proved yet again why I cannot.
He apologized this morning, as expected.
Yeah, right, that'll make the words unspoken...
I'm fine now. Not great, but okay. If I ended up calling you last night, don't mind me, I just needed to vent about it and I hope I wasn't an inconvenience.