ça vaut pas le cou......
So, I already broke a new year's resolution, possibly my biggest one. I had a few that I've been trying to work on (have better posture, not say like as much), but the biggest one of all was to not let boys make me crazy. Alas, it's only the end of january and I have already failed.
I've decided to be done with boys. I thought I had them all figured out, I really did. But now I've realized that they're far too frustrating and I can't waste my time on them anymore.
Why did I decide to put boys on hold? Although europeans (and mexicans) are easier to deal with than Americans boys, last semester there were still quite a few who made me insane. Always wondering when they were going to call, analyzing every single move and glance and thing that they said (and didn't say).....being mad at myself for giving in one too many times....wondering again and again, why guys initiate something, then lose interest right away...then, the boys with whom I don't even care if anything happens, or with whom nothing should happen or is going to happen, I still find myself going crazy and constantly thinking about them and getting frustrated and mad and sad and it's just not worth it...
I'm just so sick and tired of letting boys rule my life. Ok, maybe I'm exaggerating a little, but it's partly true. All my friends know me as the boy-crazy one, but really, I only am in Europe. In america, I pretty much don't care about guys. (They're sort of like how drugs and drinking are for me now: take 'em or leave 'em.....) So I used to really care, but not until I came to europe. It's too bad that no matter what continent they come from, no matter what age they are, boys are still frustrating and confusing. But overall, I've still had better luck with the ones who speak spanish, it seems. I think I'm going to move to spain after I graduate.....the south of spain...maybe granada....it's an idea. I need to get my spanish back, because it's horribly disappeared. But I still have plenty to take at State when I come back, so I guess I'm not too worried.
So, bottom line....I'm going to do my best to not be disturbed and bothered by boys, but I'm not making any promises....I've tried swearing off boys a thousand times before, and it's never worked. So I guess there's nothing I can do.
I've decided to be done with boys. I thought I had them all figured out, I really did. But now I've realized that they're far too frustrating and I can't waste my time on them anymore.
Why did I decide to put boys on hold? Although europeans (and mexicans) are easier to deal with than Americans boys, last semester there were still quite a few who made me insane. Always wondering when they were going to call, analyzing every single move and glance and thing that they said (and didn't say).....being mad at myself for giving in one too many times....wondering again and again, why guys initiate something, then lose interest right away...then, the boys with whom I don't even care if anything happens, or with whom nothing should happen or is going to happen, I still find myself going crazy and constantly thinking about them and getting frustrated and mad and sad and it's just not worth it...
I'm just so sick and tired of letting boys rule my life. Ok, maybe I'm exaggerating a little, but it's partly true. All my friends know me as the boy-crazy one, but really, I only am in Europe. In america, I pretty much don't care about guys. (They're sort of like how drugs and drinking are for me now: take 'em or leave 'em.....) So I used to really care, but not until I came to europe. It's too bad that no matter what continent they come from, no matter what age they are, boys are still frustrating and confusing. But overall, I've still had better luck with the ones who speak spanish, it seems. I think I'm going to move to spain after I graduate.....the south of spain...maybe granada....it's an idea. I need to get my spanish back, because it's horribly disappeared. But I still have plenty to take at State when I come back, so I guess I'm not too worried.
So, bottom line....I'm going to do my best to not be disturbed and bothered by boys, but I'm not making any promises....I've tried swearing off boys a thousand times before, and it's never worked. So I guess there's nothing I can do.