paralysis
I've recently been through a rapid changing of medication. Because the two medications interacted, I had to be completely off my previous one. So, I began to go through a kind of withdrawal when I came off of it so quickly. Now, usually I experience an anxiety paralysis where i become immobilized in anticipation of performing some overwhelming task. During this wash out, I began having disturbing nightmares where I would wake up in a pool of sweat but be unable to move. It was a more severe paralysis where i couldn't even twitch as far as i could tell. I would realize i was dreaming and try to wake up. All I could manage was to strain open my eyes into a half sleep state. Like still in a dream I could feel myself moving, but wouldn't see myself actually doing so. I would try to hold my hands up to my eyes, feel myself holding them up to my eyes, but see nothing actually moving.
I've never experienced such horror in my life, expounded by being left to fight helplessly, hoping to naturally snap out of it or to be sucked back into the nightmare. In one in particular, I couldn't move in the dream either. I was tied up and being tortured. And every time I thought about how to bear the torture and how it could be worse, it became that worse. Other times, I was usually being chased by someone from my past. I ended up pulling my eyes open several times during the night but ultimately falling back into the nightmare, such that i would get really bad sleep and have to get more during the day, returning to more nightmares. I think the withdrawal is over now and it's gone away, but never again will I allow someone to rush me through a healthcare change.
I've never experienced such horror in my life, expounded by being left to fight helplessly, hoping to naturally snap out of it or to be sucked back into the nightmare. In one in particular, I couldn't move in the dream either. I was tied up and being tortured. And every time I thought about how to bear the torture and how it could be worse, it became that worse. Other times, I was usually being chased by someone from my past. I ended up pulling my eyes open several times during the night but ultimately falling back into the nightmare, such that i would get really bad sleep and have to get more during the day, returning to more nightmares. I think the withdrawal is over now and it's gone away, but never again will I allow someone to rush me through a healthcare change.