24 day's and counting....
Really I just want this year to end. And yet even though the days pass, it some how just gets worse. Its like this year is just trying to see how many fucked up things it can dish out before it ends. My best friend just lost her dog, in what had to be one of the most fucked up ways ever. I miss her so much. I went over the day she found her, so I could see her and the poor pup. Mitsy.... that was her name. She was my dogs sister. Gosh how they loved each other. I know she is going to miss her lil sis.
And now today I just found out that they found the first stages of colon cancer in my aunt. I fell so bad. I hope she will be ok. I see her all the time and she seems so young. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Why dose this shit just keep on coming? This is just about the worst year since my dad passed away. And this year just made that death just sooooo much. Really one more thing and I think I will go crazy. Seel that’s all I need to do. Once I go on break from school I am just going to sleep. Even though I just started to get up and out of my house from my last trip to hell. But sleep just sounds like the best thing for me. I'll just have to see I guess.
There are too many people I've had to say good bye to this year. But they all I knew I loved them, even the one I never met who loved more than anything....