toss and turn
i have totally been on a bangles kick for about a week now. i forgot how much i love the bangles. they are great. i wanna start a bangles tribute band, and i totally would if i could sing and was more than four days into my guitar lessons. the bangles are great, so dont you forget it.
i know i havent written in awhile, ive been busy, or as busy as i can be with lots of work and not much else. i like being busy. i like challenging myself. and i havent been lately.
so i have decided to go back to school. my semester off turned into one day off, and now i wanna go back. so i drove my happy little (cute, hehe) ass out to OCCC today after work and turned in my application. i should be enrolled by wednesday and can start classes this semester. i have been really sad for the past few days listening to everyone talking about their classes, wishing i was going to class. then i got to thinking today and i am totally single, ambitious, and bored all the time so this would be a stupid semester to take off. last year i remember whoever i was dating always getting me to skip class. if im single i should go to school, itll prolly be better for me. i wouldnt be getting much out of taking a semester off. i decided on a definite career path over the summer that i am extremely excited about and i am really thinking i will do better this semester. so when tyler said i could still enroll i was really excited, and i hope i can get things together fast enough to do well this semester.
i had a party on friday. it was fun. lots of people came. lots of people got drunk. really drunk. strange pictures were taken. i did things that still give me butterflies and goosebumps (good ones, both) to think about. and everyone i have talked to said they had fun, so overall i think it was a success. i hate having parties, much happier just going to them, but only every once in awhile. im not a big party girl. but occasionally they are nice. it is fun to have them at your house though cause your toothbrush and bed are there. those are good things to have at the later stages of a party.
i came in second in an online tournament the other day, and i won about twenty bucks playing old school quarter/dollar poker last night. that made me happy.
i am FINALLY learning how to play the guitar, and you may have read earlier. lucas came over and gave me some chords and picking excercises to work on last wednesday. i am already bored with them, but i still practice them at least thirty minutes a day, everyday. cause that what he says im supposed to do. i dont think im all that horrible, although i still dont understand the concept of a string instrument fully. ive had it explained to me countless times, but i am not used to playing chords at a time and its weird for me. i dunno, but maybe soon ill get down something notable.
im really tired, wow. i didnt realize that till just now.
so football starts on saturday and i am all kinds of excited. my work actually gave me saturday off (even though i didnt request it, and would loved to have gotten in on those game day tips) so now i can watch the game.
this entry isnt all that exciting.
in other news i have been in a state of confusion as to what i (me, and only myself with no sway from anyone else) want out of a lot of things. i decided today that i really wanna go to school, get my 80 hours and become a police officer as soon as possible. so that is decided. but other things, regarding friends, a boy, i dont really have figured out. i think about things a lot and for some reason my brain tells me that i have this great situation in my life right now, but i am not completely happy with it and that bothers me to no end. i hate that. and i dont feel like i am allowed to discuss it with anyone for fear of saying the wrong thing, bothering other people with whats on my mind, or just not having the right people there to talk to.
so im confused right now. i think that is why anxious is a good current mood for me. im excited about a lot of things, but im also ready for a lot of things to reach a definite place that doesnt exist right now. im anxious about it all.
i know i havent written in awhile, ive been busy, or as busy as i can be with lots of work and not much else. i like being busy. i like challenging myself. and i havent been lately.
so i have decided to go back to school. my semester off turned into one day off, and now i wanna go back. so i drove my happy little (cute, hehe) ass out to OCCC today after work and turned in my application. i should be enrolled by wednesday and can start classes this semester. i have been really sad for the past few days listening to everyone talking about their classes, wishing i was going to class. then i got to thinking today and i am totally single, ambitious, and bored all the time so this would be a stupid semester to take off. last year i remember whoever i was dating always getting me to skip class. if im single i should go to school, itll prolly be better for me. i wouldnt be getting much out of taking a semester off. i decided on a definite career path over the summer that i am extremely excited about and i am really thinking i will do better this semester. so when tyler said i could still enroll i was really excited, and i hope i can get things together fast enough to do well this semester.
i had a party on friday. it was fun. lots of people came. lots of people got drunk. really drunk. strange pictures were taken. i did things that still give me butterflies and goosebumps (good ones, both) to think about. and everyone i have talked to said they had fun, so overall i think it was a success. i hate having parties, much happier just going to them, but only every once in awhile. im not a big party girl. but occasionally they are nice. it is fun to have them at your house though cause your toothbrush and bed are there. those are good things to have at the later stages of a party.
i came in second in an online tournament the other day, and i won about twenty bucks playing old school quarter/dollar poker last night. that made me happy.
i am FINALLY learning how to play the guitar, and you may have read earlier. lucas came over and gave me some chords and picking excercises to work on last wednesday. i am already bored with them, but i still practice them at least thirty minutes a day, everyday. cause that what he says im supposed to do. i dont think im all that horrible, although i still dont understand the concept of a string instrument fully. ive had it explained to me countless times, but i am not used to playing chords at a time and its weird for me. i dunno, but maybe soon ill get down something notable.
im really tired, wow. i didnt realize that till just now.
so football starts on saturday and i am all kinds of excited. my work actually gave me saturday off (even though i didnt request it, and would loved to have gotten in on those game day tips) so now i can watch the game.
this entry isnt all that exciting.
in other news i have been in a state of confusion as to what i (me, and only myself with no sway from anyone else) want out of a lot of things. i decided today that i really wanna go to school, get my 80 hours and become a police officer as soon as possible. so that is decided. but other things, regarding friends, a boy, i dont really have figured out. i think about things a lot and for some reason my brain tells me that i have this great situation in my life right now, but i am not completely happy with it and that bothers me to no end. i hate that. and i dont feel like i am allowed to discuss it with anyone for fear of saying the wrong thing, bothering other people with whats on my mind, or just not having the right people there to talk to.
so im confused right now. i think that is why anxious is a good current mood for me. im excited about a lot of things, but im also ready for a lot of things to reach a definite place that doesnt exist right now. im anxious about it all.