thoughts.
So Richard and I are doing good. Still spending a lot of time together, and I am sad when he has to go home every night. Kassaundra adores him, and it is almost like he has taken the place of Kirk in her life. She behaves the same way with Richard the way she acted with Kirk. Kirk still hasn't called once except for that night of prank calls. Jaron decided to curse me out and delete me off his friends on myspace. Apparently I am a bitch who took Kassaundra from them etc. You know the story.
More serious talk has been creeping up into things. And for some reason it doesn't scare me. Whenever Kirk would talk about it I would try to change the subject or tell him to wait until we made it through the first year as parents. It was a good thing I did because could you imagine if I had married him? Dad said I left Kirk mentally a long time ago, and I was just fighting to hold onto my family and he is happy that I found someone like Richard. Looking back on it, I was constantly being guilted into staying. What kind of life would that have been. I was obviously unhappy and I just refused to see it.
So Yea. It has been a happy time lately. I am so glad things finally seem to be falling into place. Richard just needs to make up his mind about what he wants because he refuses to see what has been laid out in front of him in the form of dreams and other various things people have said. I have already decided where I stand on everything.
I start my job in a week, and my birthday is in 6 days. JOY! I am excited to start work, yet not excited at the same time. I can't wait for those paychecks to come in, but I am going to miss my time spent with Kassaundra. Richard and I will have a hard time finding time to hang out because of our schedules, but it can be done. I am confident of that.
I don't know that I will have time for NaNoWriMo this year because of starting the new job. Mom said that I could get it done this week. She is that confident in my writing skills aparently. She said that I wouldn't have time after that, and I agree on that one, but 1 week to write it? Maybe I will try just to see if I can.
More serious talk has been creeping up into things. And for some reason it doesn't scare me. Whenever Kirk would talk about it I would try to change the subject or tell him to wait until we made it through the first year as parents. It was a good thing I did because could you imagine if I had married him? Dad said I left Kirk mentally a long time ago, and I was just fighting to hold onto my family and he is happy that I found someone like Richard. Looking back on it, I was constantly being guilted into staying. What kind of life would that have been. I was obviously unhappy and I just refused to see it.
So Yea. It has been a happy time lately. I am so glad things finally seem to be falling into place. Richard just needs to make up his mind about what he wants because he refuses to see what has been laid out in front of him in the form of dreams and other various things people have said. I have already decided where I stand on everything.
I start my job in a week, and my birthday is in 6 days. JOY! I am excited to start work, yet not excited at the same time. I can't wait for those paychecks to come in, but I am going to miss my time spent with Kassaundra. Richard and I will have a hard time finding time to hang out because of our schedules, but it can be done. I am confident of that.
I don't know that I will have time for NaNoWriMo this year because of starting the new job. Mom said that I could get it done this week. She is that confident in my writing skills aparently. She said that I wouldn't have time after that, and I agree on that one, but 1 week to write it? Maybe I will try just to see if I can.