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so. it's been a month since the whole "forced to grow up thing" and i am happy to erm..admit that i've never been happier. :) (score!) *ahem* anyways... my best friend is back to stay.. i think unless a certain spoiled actor changes his mind again. but i love him for it! i know that could be considered shitty but i do. i missed her soooo soo so much! she is made of awesome. and she looks out for me. so does my other close friend, but the two of them are so different that it's probably hard to understand from an outside point of view that they are the best friends of the same person. (that was a mouth full..) oy. so i'm hanging out at the bucks by myself and i'm surrounded by all these business men and i kinda feel like a tard writing in an online journal.....so.. yeah. lalalalala being on my own is awesome. but then again i live with a 94 year old woman who likes to know when i come and go. but besides that...i do whatever the fuck i want to do. (i wish i got the laptop with a camera on it..i want to make a video...but that would require being funny and liking the way my voice sounds..random..) i have all this energy right now and all my friends are working or sick or have to study...and this is like the one day in awhile where i'm like wooo! lets do something!! and i get crickets..oy. that's my fav word. oy. it covers so much ;-p i want a cigarette..that's bad. i thought not inhaling would help with the whole addicted thing. ugh. uuuhhhhh.....caffine headache... i am such a loser. :( i am at work on my day off. i wonder if i'll be able to make a book out of all this shit when i'm older. hhmmm....*ponder* i cannot stand visiting my friend at his new job! people at nordstroms are so fucking stuck up! all those rich bitches and the assholes who serve them. i have to wear my nicest clothes to visit him to avoid getting glared at. not just a stare or the "up an down" but glaring! i won't even get asked i f i need help if i'm not shoved into designer jeans upon arrival. and when i've gone in there with the intention of buying something, i have changed my mind and left. fuck that. when i worked at fredericks for erm...a month.. i didn't judge. i'll admit i preferred to see the young hot chicks topless and not the old ladies with boobs down to thier knees.. but c'mon, who wouldn't?? helping these women withh gorgeous bodies who have less self esteem than i do ( and i could use a corset in daily life to achieve hips instead of gut )was fucking bad ass! so yeah...i'm still bored out of my mind. and really want in n out. *mmmmmm..* traffic is gonna suck balls..will it be worth it?? this is without a doubt the most random of my ramblings..maybe because i have only had a caramel macchiatto all day or maybe because i'm trying to look busy so that people will leave me alone..i'm not sure. whatever the reason i don't blame you if you don't even make it to this part of the paragraph..(this really long paragraph..)