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I am trying to get to sleep but an old boyfriend keeps creeping up into my head. Out of all the guys i ever dated, this particular one has always stuck in my mind. I know the reason why i'm thinking of him, it's because i came across old pictures of me and him, ones from prom and what not. Sometimes i wish i could erase him from my memory like jim carey in eternal sunshine and then run into this guy after the memory of him was erased so that we could start things all over again. I don't know why i torture myself about this one guy. A part of me still hopes that one day when the time is right we'll meet up and fall in love again. I've tried meeting new guys here in san marcos but it just isn't working out too well. I'm still single and most of the time i enjoy it but lately i've felt like i'm missing something great in my life and a man is what i feel like i'm missing. I guess i need to just suppress these feelings and thoughts.