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wow, I just spent a good hour reading through old lj entries. I wrote some FUNNY ass posts back in 2005, a lot of them I'm like, how the hell did I come up with that?? now i'm just a lot crankier. Made me miss a lot of my old friends. Most of who I drank with back then and were so close too are all married or recovering alcoholics, so getting back with them doesn't sound too fun. I didn't realize how often I drank back then. Of course I got married right out of highschool to a woman who was more of a mother, so when I divorced it felt like I had finally moved out of my parents house. Really made me miss Beth for the 1st time in a while, not the beth I dated the last year or so, that was a nightmare, back when things were new, I was just divorced and life was fresh and new and exciting again and everything was fun and carefree. Made me feel lonely and a bit depressed for the first time in a long time. Living in a studio apartment with a tv on the floor, renting vhs' and playing computer games together all day. Then shit got all serious and the fun went away. None of my posts were serious, of course everyone read them back then, so I made them more entertaining. Don't have all that many good friends anymore, the ones I have I rarely see. Everyones too busy with their own shit, including myself. Plus I can't physically party like that anymore, I'm all growed up. Just a weird night down memory lane. I'll snap back when I wake up tmw morning. Although I'm sure I'm going to have weird flashback dreams tonight . .