So freakin' bored....
I'm tired of just sitting around here when there are plenty of other things I could be doing... I'm just too lazy to walk all the way down to the other end of the school, just to get my CAD book that weighs a ton... to do homework, then to carry it around some more, until I go totally insane from the weight... it's bad. My back is like 5 times worse then it was before I came back to school... oh well... just slouch some more, what makes the differnce?
My weekend wasn't very exciting... all the good stuff is a secret... shhh... but Jo went with me to take the boys to Rose City on Sat. That was the most time I've spent with her in a while. It's sad like that... We're such good friends but we never see each other... what a pain in the ass... neither of us really have time for anything... she has two jobs now and I got to school and work, and I have Shane too... so my time with anything else is very limited... but I do a fine job pretending... we both do. I hope everything works out for Jo like it should... the good thing is that I can still see Shane and Jo, and Chris all at the same time... we went bowling a week or so ago.. it was fun... Jo didnt' bowl but she was having a lot of fun being able to drink... not quite too much fun though... Chris is a shitty bowler... but I'm worse... there's hope for Shane though... Jo asked me ealier that day if I wanted to join a league with her... she didn't even bowl.. and neither of us could afford it anyway... she maybe could now with 2 jobs, but there's little hope for me.
Grans and pa got a new fifth wheel. I'm was hoping they'd take it somewhere on vacation soon... just so I could sit in peace for a while... Pa sort of understands, even though he does have a hard time with it... I just hate being around someone so much like my mother... I've worked damn hard for what I have and I refuse to let her take any of it away from me. I talked to Pa about my curfew too... I think he some what understands that I want my freedom... I can stay out until like 11 now... which was better than 10. And he let me watch Aaron and Heather's kids Saturday night and I didn't have to come home. I stayed there. They both worry... they always will, I know... but little else matters... I keep asking them what they're going to do when I'm gone... They hadn't given it any thought. I'm leaving in less then a year, sink or swim, and there's not going to be a coming back. I'm gone when I go. I want to leave!! I'll still keep in touch with them, and love them just the same, but I want to be my own... I've been waiting too long to be my own person. Shane and I have made a lot of plans... we'll see if he can make it through me going to Ferris or not. I have a lot of hope for us... I have nearly no doubt... I'm just afraid he's going to mess up one of these days and I'm going to have to hurt him... he knows not what he does... it must be really busy at work today... I haven't heard from him yet... he's probley so busy it's hard to breath... he had a lot of stuff to do on Friday and he didn't get it done before he left. He got to work at 7 and left at 5. They wanted him to stay until 6 or 7. He told them he had to leave by 5 to go to the UP. he had to help his brother over the weekend. He bottled him Apple wine yesterday... I hope it all works out.. it'll amaze me if you can make wine out of juicy juice, but we'll give it a try. It sounded good to me...
yup... another hour... then I have to talk to my teacher... yup... that's it...
My weekend wasn't very exciting... all the good stuff is a secret... shhh... but Jo went with me to take the boys to Rose City on Sat. That was the most time I've spent with her in a while. It's sad like that... We're such good friends but we never see each other... what a pain in the ass... neither of us really have time for anything... she has two jobs now and I got to school and work, and I have Shane too... so my time with anything else is very limited... but I do a fine job pretending... we both do. I hope everything works out for Jo like it should... the good thing is that I can still see Shane and Jo, and Chris all at the same time... we went bowling a week or so ago.. it was fun... Jo didnt' bowl but she was having a lot of fun being able to drink... not quite too much fun though... Chris is a shitty bowler... but I'm worse... there's hope for Shane though... Jo asked me ealier that day if I wanted to join a league with her... she didn't even bowl.. and neither of us could afford it anyway... she maybe could now with 2 jobs, but there's little hope for me.
Grans and pa got a new fifth wheel. I'm was hoping they'd take it somewhere on vacation soon... just so I could sit in peace for a while... Pa sort of understands, even though he does have a hard time with it... I just hate being around someone so much like my mother... I've worked damn hard for what I have and I refuse to let her take any of it away from me. I talked to Pa about my curfew too... I think he some what understands that I want my freedom... I can stay out until like 11 now... which was better than 10. And he let me watch Aaron and Heather's kids Saturday night and I didn't have to come home. I stayed there. They both worry... they always will, I know... but little else matters... I keep asking them what they're going to do when I'm gone... They hadn't given it any thought. I'm leaving in less then a year, sink or swim, and there's not going to be a coming back. I'm gone when I go. I want to leave!! I'll still keep in touch with them, and love them just the same, but I want to be my own... I've been waiting too long to be my own person. Shane and I have made a lot of plans... we'll see if he can make it through me going to Ferris or not. I have a lot of hope for us... I have nearly no doubt... I'm just afraid he's going to mess up one of these days and I'm going to have to hurt him... he knows not what he does... it must be really busy at work today... I haven't heard from him yet... he's probley so busy it's hard to breath... he had a lot of stuff to do on Friday and he didn't get it done before he left. He got to work at 7 and left at 5. They wanted him to stay until 6 or 7. He told them he had to leave by 5 to go to the UP. he had to help his brother over the weekend. He bottled him Apple wine yesterday... I hope it all works out.. it'll amaze me if you can make wine out of juicy juice, but we'll give it a try. It sounded good to me...
yup... another hour... then I have to talk to my teacher... yup... that's it...