what would an angel say? the devil wants to know...
wow, so it's been a while. lol, four days, but hey that's a while to me. i read through the lj entries and caught up a bit. glad to see everyone's still bitching and moaning. lol. But getting out of this house and just enjoying myself, not being on this computer or any computer for a solid four days straight has been amazing. Working out a lot and
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I care about you, I always will. I care about how everything goes in your life, and about your happiness.
I don't know if you know, but a couple of days after I bitched you out I had Jess call you and make sure you were alright, because I knew I was really hard on you, and although most of those things had to be said, I said them the wrong way. I told her not to tell you I had her do that, but that's pointless anyway.
I'm also glad that you know that we can't get back together. I just can't put trust in your emotions right now. Like you said, you broke my heart. It's not even as soft as that cliche... when I was talking to Kat the other night and she said "You've never cared about anyone this intensely before." I also said back, "No one's also hurt me like this before." and no one has. You ripped my emotions to shreds in the past 2 months. I just want you to know that, and remember that when you deal with other people, so that you can see it yourself and stop yourself before hurting someone else.
Also, I do want you to stay in my life, and be at least friends with me. People always say that doesn't ever work and blah blah blah but they're weaklings who already think it doesn't work, so that's WHY it doesn't work.
We have 13 days til we get back to school. I'll save a seat for you in psych, or you can drop by my room. Til then I'm not putting you back on lj and we're not talking on aim, because I need me time for once... a cooling off period. I hope you can respect that.
However, if you have an emergency and no one to turn to, you KNOW that no matter what and no matter what I say, I will be there for you. You know my number if you need it, and I hope you have a happy 13 more days.
PS. Brittany's a dumb cunt, because I don't date ugly guys, nevermind fall in love with them. She's just jealous because she's becoming an alcoholic NOTHING and you're on your way to being the hottest and best psychologist/ professor EVER. You should throw rotten raisins at her house, because that's probably what her titties look like.
PPS. She's going to hell for being a liar.
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