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so i dont know what to do i lied to nicole because i didnt want her to get all pissed off and it turns out it did more harm then good she says i need to be careful about how i say things but i have no fucken idea on how to watch what i say i just spit things out but evidently that is wrong and i dont now how to watch what i say i mean ive been like this for 18 years and i have no idea how to fucken change we've had fun and havent had any arguements for a long time but its always when were at like the top of getting along that i fuck up i mean i dont know what to say or how to change what i say i mean thats me and ive been like this since i was born i mean this is how i am and its who i am should i change or just tell her this is how i am accept it...i have no idea i dont want to tell her to just accept it because i honestly do love her but on the other hand if i can change what goods it gonna do for her to think i can when i cant i mean i dont know what to do or how to think ahead its just the way i am ive tried and i put long pausees in between words then people give me wierd looks so obviously im fucked but yeah what to do what to do