Horrible Dreams...
Alright, I'm gonna start off with the 'Horrible Dreams' part since that is what's bugging me this morning. I got home around 12:50ish last night ((kinda early for me, but its all good)) and watched some TV til about 2:15am. I went to bed with happy thoughts on my mind, but I guess my subconscious had other things on its mind. I don't really remember how my dream started, I just remember it continued from when Chris and I broke up. I was so fucking pist, you have no idea. In my dream, he started talkin and actually asked my sister out. And she said YES! I was so0o0o mad, I could feel my heart breaking all over again. I actually woke up this morning with my chest hurting, my dream was so damn real. So yea, I guess all the plans that he and I had made ((the weird thing is: in my dream him and I planned on goin to a wedding together.)) but since we broke up he was gonna take my sister. My heart just sank into my chest, I don't know why it hurt so damn much but it did-I know because I woke up with the pain still there. Anyways, it's crazy because in the dream we were goin to pick him up from the airport or something and right before he gets off the plane-my dream ends. I didn't even get to see Chris get off the plane. haha That kinda pist me off, because the reason I didn't get to finish the dream was my mother decided to wake me up this morning lookin for her damn brush! She always wakes me up first looking for shit and it drives me insane...especially when I went to bed at like 2:30am and then she comes in and wakes me up at 7:48am!!!! Anyways, I told her Lindsey had it and then turned over and fell back to sleep. I'm glad that dream didn't continue where it left off, instead I started having a dream about ::dum dum dum:: DAVEY! I haven't dreamt about him in a really long time. Here's the dream: I was hanging out with AJ, Cherbear, Brittney, Danny, Ronnie, and someone ((I didn't know who he was)) that was friends with Davey. We were on our way to a cabin to have a party and then all of a sudden Davey comes out of nowhere. I find out that the kid that knew Davey invited him and apparently didn't know about Davey and I. I just let it go and try to act as if I didn't mind him coming along. It was weird though because every time I tried to just ignore Davey, he would show up and in one way or another: touch me. Not like a 'bad-dirty' touch or anything, but like he would put his arms around my shoulders-hug me alot and extra close. Its kinda funny, because I just remember him as my lil shorty, but in real life Davey got really tall and he has his tongue pierced ((omfg! haha)) But in my dream he was still shorter than me by like an inch but he was different. I don't know what it was, but like he was so much nicer and like he used to be when we were together. Anyways, I was sitting on the couch, well actually I was sitting on the floor while Britt was on the couch and then Davey comes and sits so I would have my hands in his lap reigon. ha ha ha ... Exgirlfriend, remember? I don't ride like that. I was gettin up to go see what Cheri was doing, couldn't find her, so I hung out with AJ and the boys. Davey comes out of nowhere ((again!)) and tries to kiss me... Right as he is reaching for my face, maybe centimeters from my lips, I wake up! I wasn't pist that I woke up, I was pist that I dreamt about Chris AND Davey in the same night. Davey was my first love, first and only for about a year. And then just breaking up with Chris, I'm not gonna lie... Chris, I'm always gonna love him. He doesn't realize that the reason I'm tryin to move on ((haha hold on, we are gonna explain this one...well, the best that I can))
One: He wrote that him and I were over and that it was for good...nothing I can do about that. I respect his decision.
Two: He has someone to talk to, so I will too.
Three: I'm doin it because its what he wanted.
And
Four: I love him enough to let him go. There's nothing I wouldn't do or give to have him back in my arms.
"Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn"
The wilted flowers that I gave
Were not as nice as your bouqet
All the lyrics that I wrote
Not as smart as the words you spoke
The starlight above my hometown
Aint as bright as the star ive found
Every drawing that I drew
Was never ever as cute as you
Serious as a heart attack
I'm looking in my almanac
Ive gotta find out all the things
And find out where she got her wings
Shimmy shimmy quarter turn
I feel like I will never learn
How can I check lost and found
When I'm too busy getting down
Gotta get it back to
A back up plan to find you
Start acceleration
Take it back to square one [2x]
I swear that I'm not kidding
We're just looking to fit in
With all the other answers
Questions never confirmed
States that keep us far apart
Turn down the beating of my heart
Mark the places in my book
With photographs we never took
I swear that I'm not kidding
The night time is so pretty
With all the stars above your eyes
I'm sneaking out and making ties
States that keep us far apart
Track the beating with a chart
Mark the rythyms that I shook
Everytime I caught you look
Gotta get it back to
A back up plan to find you
Start acceleration
Take it back to square one [3x]
I love that song!
I don't know why, it just makes sense to me. Anyways, hmm... I forgot what I was talking about. haha I guess I should scroll up and see, hm? Well, guess what? I don't feel like it. I'm kinda in a good mood right now, so I'm just gonna talk about whatever I feel like... Shall we? haha I think we shall.
So, what did I do last night? Well, I hung out with Jason. My sister decided to be nice and take me over to his house so we could chill. I've been at home for the past few days, kinda bored really. I really like hanging out with Jason. He just makes me feel comfortable. Like I can just talk to him about random things. haha Its funny when we watch TV, he watches the most random shows. I remember the first time I watched 'The Andy Milonakis Show' I couldn't stop laughing. Its unbelieveable what this kid does! Knowing me, if I was one of the old people that he fucked with-I would have smacked him with my purse or something. Suuriiously! <--I've been saying that a lot lately lol I don't know why or where I got it from, no one I know says it. Hmmm... Oh! So yea, hung out with Jason, he had to go to work early so he took me home around 12:50. No big deal, when I got home no one was really online so I just turned off the computer ((haha, haven't done that in a while!)) and went upstairs. Got some ice cream and turned on the TV. Stayed up til about 2:15ish and then decided I needed some sleep. I had been out all day with my sister and her friend Ronnie, so I was kinda tired. Plus I had been up since like 10 that morning. So yea, and then that is when the horrible dreams began.
Totally sucked balls. I had a good time just relaxin, with no stress and no worries. But then I just had to have bullshit dreams. Man, that really hurt/pist me off this morning.
But its cool now, I'm just sitting here talking to Donnie ((Chris's lil brother)) and listening to HelloGoodBye 'Homewrecker' I like this song. 'I wIlL dIg A hOlE aNd LaEeL iT lOvE' I like that, I think I'm gonna change my name on MySpace to that now. Hmm... Yea I'm gonna do that right now. brb
MmMmkay, I have returned to you my loved ones to tell you.. that well. I have nothing else to really talk about. hmm.. I'm thinking. AH! I'm gettin a headache. Alright, I give up. I'm gonna get goin. Still talking to Donnie and listenin to HelloGoodBye. lol I really like this band. I remember when Cheri would make me listen to it and it irritated me. I don't know why, but I can listen to it now. I like it.
Anyways,
love you guys!
-xoxox
Carebear
((you know how I do!))
OH!! I forgot to say. If I've offended anyone with anything that I have said, please tell me. I don't know why, but I have a feeling someone is gonna read this and not like what they've read. I dunno why though..?? lol Oh well, just let me know if anything I've written is false or offensive...whatever. I feel dumb now lol I'm gonna go..
One: He wrote that him and I were over and that it was for good...nothing I can do about that. I respect his decision.
Two: He has someone to talk to, so I will too.
Three: I'm doin it because its what he wanted.
And
Four: I love him enough to let him go. There's nothing I wouldn't do or give to have him back in my arms.
"Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn"
The wilted flowers that I gave
Were not as nice as your bouqet
All the lyrics that I wrote
Not as smart as the words you spoke
The starlight above my hometown
Aint as bright as the star ive found
Every drawing that I drew
Was never ever as cute as you
Serious as a heart attack
I'm looking in my almanac
Ive gotta find out all the things
And find out where she got her wings
Shimmy shimmy quarter turn
I feel like I will never learn
How can I check lost and found
When I'm too busy getting down
Gotta get it back to
A back up plan to find you
Start acceleration
Take it back to square one [2x]
I swear that I'm not kidding
We're just looking to fit in
With all the other answers
Questions never confirmed
States that keep us far apart
Turn down the beating of my heart
Mark the places in my book
With photographs we never took
I swear that I'm not kidding
The night time is so pretty
With all the stars above your eyes
I'm sneaking out and making ties
States that keep us far apart
Track the beating with a chart
Mark the rythyms that I shook
Everytime I caught you look
Gotta get it back to
A back up plan to find you
Start acceleration
Take it back to square one [3x]
I love that song!
I don't know why, it just makes sense to me. Anyways, hmm... I forgot what I was talking about. haha I guess I should scroll up and see, hm? Well, guess what? I don't feel like it. I'm kinda in a good mood right now, so I'm just gonna talk about whatever I feel like... Shall we? haha I think we shall.
So, what did I do last night? Well, I hung out with Jason. My sister decided to be nice and take me over to his house so we could chill. I've been at home for the past few days, kinda bored really. I really like hanging out with Jason. He just makes me feel comfortable. Like I can just talk to him about random things. haha Its funny when we watch TV, he watches the most random shows. I remember the first time I watched 'The Andy Milonakis Show' I couldn't stop laughing. Its unbelieveable what this kid does! Knowing me, if I was one of the old people that he fucked with-I would have smacked him with my purse or something. Suuriiously! <--I've been saying that a lot lately lol I don't know why or where I got it from, no one I know says it. Hmmm... Oh! So yea, hung out with Jason, he had to go to work early so he took me home around 12:50. No big deal, when I got home no one was really online so I just turned off the computer ((haha, haven't done that in a while!)) and went upstairs. Got some ice cream and turned on the TV. Stayed up til about 2:15ish and then decided I needed some sleep. I had been out all day with my sister and her friend Ronnie, so I was kinda tired. Plus I had been up since like 10 that morning. So yea, and then that is when the horrible dreams began.
Totally sucked balls. I had a good time just relaxin, with no stress and no worries. But then I just had to have bullshit dreams. Man, that really hurt/pist me off this morning.
But its cool now, I'm just sitting here talking to Donnie ((Chris's lil brother)) and listening to HelloGoodBye 'Homewrecker' I like this song. 'I wIlL dIg A hOlE aNd LaEeL iT lOvE' I like that, I think I'm gonna change my name on MySpace to that now. Hmm... Yea I'm gonna do that right now. brb
MmMmkay, I have returned to you my loved ones to tell you.. that well. I have nothing else to really talk about. hmm.. I'm thinking. AH! I'm gettin a headache. Alright, I give up. I'm gonna get goin. Still talking to Donnie and listenin to HelloGoodBye. lol I really like this band. I remember when Cheri would make me listen to it and it irritated me. I don't know why, but I can listen to it now. I like it.
Anyways,
love you guys!
-xoxox
Carebear
((you know how I do!))
OH!! I forgot to say. If I've offended anyone with anything that I have said, please tell me. I don't know why, but I have a feeling someone is gonna read this and not like what they've read. I dunno why though..?? lol Oh well, just let me know if anything I've written is false or offensive...whatever. I feel dumb now lol I'm gonna go..