present company accept it present company expect the worst

[evenstar6q]

I don't feel at all motivated. I find it hard to care about work. I missed you last night, when I fell asleep under the blanket. "You keep on trying to break up with me," says Kirsten Dunst's voice in my ear, "and we're not even together." "...We're not?!" There was a part of me that thought this was it. This was my best friend. Maybe this was the rest of my life. What happened to Edinburgh? What happened to I adore? What happened to not being able to get me out of your head? What happened to possibilities?

I'm so tired. I've always been optimistic, sure that I'd be happy in the end. There's a huge dent in it now. I don't even have the energy to be sad.

We should try a little harder
In the tedious march of the few
Every day's a different warning
There's a part of me hoping it's true