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[evenstar648]

Like I said to Sean on the phone about a minute ago, our circle of friends has grown very small. It started off with me, him, Ryan, Becky, Ashley, and maybe a couple of other people. But Becky decided to fuck everyone over, and nobody really sees her much anymore. And now that Ashley and Sean have broken up, Ashley kinda wandered away and is actually starting to remind me a little of Becky. Earlier this summer (which was only a few weeks ago), it seemed like every weekend everyone would go hang out at Ryan's. Those were good times... I miss them. Even though everyone got completely and utterly trashed. Oh well, that seems to be the story of my life. Now, it seems like my weekends consist of sitting around my house, praying that someone will call me and want to hang out. But even if they do, like Ashley did a couple of times, I don't get another phone call. So I just sit around, waiting and doing nothing. That being said, I'm sick of a lot of people. I still can't help getting the same feelings of being left out that I did in high school. Let's face it- senior year, I didn't hang out with anyone outside of school. (Becky's excuse was that everyone thought I was too busy with drama and guard and everything else to hang out.... on the weekends. But did they ask? No.) Personally, I'd rather have people tell me that they don't want to hang out with me, rather than have them completely blow me off. Seriously, people, wtf. I thought we were friends. And now I feel like I have almost none.

On the plus side, me and Sean went over to G-funk's last night, and I think it's safe to say we had a good time. Who doesn't like to watch movies?

Is it sad that my awesome weekend happened on Thursday night and Friday morning? Seriously, all day Friday it felt like Saturday.

I really don't know what else I was going to write. Except that I have a feeling people may get mad if they see this. Oh well; if I was really that concerned, I would have not written this.