to read, perchance to heal..? maybe.

[evasearchin]

sometimes I click on fics
that I've previously read,
the non-con,
the dub con,
the angst,
the hurt/comfort,

and sometimes,
when I'm not in the mood;
the right state of mind,
i find,
that what I read,
is all kinds of crazy.

my eyes
water in surprise
at the level of delinquent,
i seem to find,
seem to need,
to fill the hole,
that doesn't quite go away,
in the dark recesses of my mind.