A Minute in My Skin (1/2)
Title: A Minute in My Skin
Author: evanlikesthrust
Rating: Part 1: PG-13 | Part 2: NC-17
Pairing: Rian Dawson/Matt Flyzik (Ryzik, if you are so inclined)
Summary: During the MSP tour, the drummer discovers some abnormal feelings for All Time Low's tour manager.
Disclaimer: This is false, title belongs to ATL
It was about half an hour after the Milwaukee stop of the My Small Package Tour, and the boys of All Time Low were walking out of the small venue to go do signings for some of their dedicated fans that had stayed after the show. They always loved meeting their fans and interacting and talking with them; all the boys could agree that next to playing music, it was their favorite part of their ‘careers’, dare they even call it a career.
As most of the exhausted and sweaty teenagers began to clear out, the boys finished up signing and talking to their few remaining fans and walked toward the bus. They were all exhausted; although the tour had not been that long thus far, it was rather demanding. Their sets were a lot longer than usual and all the technical issues they had faced had been a bit strenuous. But hey, this was the tour life.
Jack and Zack boarded the bus, quickly going for their bunks in order to lie down. Usually one or both of them would get a drink before bed, but today all they had their minds focused on was sleep.
As Alex placed his foot on the first step of the bus, he felt a hand grab him rather forcefully by the arm. He stopped in his tracks and turned around to see Rian grabbing his arm, with kind of a strained look on his face. This was very unusual for Rian, as he was usually peppy and happy and smiley, so this made Alex a bit worried.
“Hey Ri, what’s up?” Alex tried to put concern in his voice; Rian seemed like he needed it.
“Uhm, can I talk to you for a minute?” Rian sounded really upset. Alex was getting pretty concerned. This was a very abnormal occurrence, so something serious had to have been wrong.
“Yeah, sure, what’s wrong?” Alex stepped off the bus and turned around to face his band mate. Rian looked tense; he had since returned his arms to a defensive folded position across his chest, and he was kind of looking down at the ground.
“I…I don’t know how to say…” Rian stuttered nervously, rubbing the back of his neck timidly with one hand.
“Just say it, Ri, it’s okay. Whatever it is, you can trust me.”
“Uh…well…I’m gay.” This even took Rian by surprise, that he was able to spit it out without too much hesitation. But, he trusted Alex. They did live together, after all.
Alex didn’t say anything after that. He was shocked. Out of all the guys in the band, he wouldn’t have suspected Rian to be gay for one second. He even had a girlfriend. Or, probably didn’t anymore given the circumstances. But, regardless, this was so sudden and… random. Naturally, this took a bit for Alex to process. He was still trying to wrap his mind around this whole thing. A couple seconds after this surprising news, and a few moments of silence, Alex took a look at Rian. He could see tears start to well up in the boy’s eyes.
“Ri, what’s wrong?” He asked, pulling the drummer into big, loving hug. He wrapped his arms around the emotionally fragile boy’s back and squeezed just a bit, as he felt Rian’s face nuzzle into his neck. Not soon after, he felt the warm moisture of tears begin to collect around where Rian’s face was positioned on his shoulder.
“Hey, Rian. It’s okay,” Alex tried to comfort the drummer, pulling him away from his body in attempt to look him in the eyes, “I think it’s great that you told me, and I’m proud of you for coming out. Now why are you upset?” Rian wiped the tears from under his eyes and righted himself.
“Well…you never said anything when I first told you-,”
“Rian. It’s a lot to take in when one of my best friends tells me they’re gay, and I was just trying to process. I think it’s great, and my opinions of you won’t change. Now what else?” Alex could see that his recent sentiments had made Rian a tad happier. But, the boy still looked distraught.
“Er, nothing,” By the way Rian carried himself, Alex would tell he was hiding something.
“Ri, come on.”
“Uh…well…I kind of…have feelings for someone?” Rian added an upward inflection at the end of his sentence.
“Really? That’s great!” Alex accompanied these congratulations with a loving pat on the back.
“Yeah, but…” the tears started again, and Rian attempted to shield his face from Alex’s view with one hand, the other still gripped tightly around his own waist.
“Wh…what’s so upsetting about that?” Alex asked kindly.
“Uhm…it’s like…who I have feelings for that’s…upsetting,” Rian sniffled.
“Well who is it?” this, for some reason, made Rian even more upset than he already was. The drummer pretty much collapsed onto his friend, the slight sniffles quickly evolving into light sobs as he wrapped himself around Alex.
“Tell me who it is, Rian. I’m sure that it’s okay, and I’m sure that you’d be able to get them. It’s okay,” Alex desperately tried to console Rian, rubbing his back slowly and letting him snuggle as much as the drummer needed to. After a minute or so of consoling, and after Rian had pretty much stopped crying, he gave a response.
“Matt.”
“Really?” Alex righted Rian from his body, and looked at the boy with a grin, “Ri, that’s adorable! You could so get him! Why are you so upset about this?”
“Uh, what about Kendra?” Rian sniffled again, wiping his eye on the sleeve of his black t-shirt.
“Oh my God. They broke up at the beginning of the tour, silly boy!” Alex ruffled Rian’s hair - er, stubble - and smiled a huge smile at him.
“Really?” Rian’s face twisted into a smile, showing those brilliant white teeth of his.
“Yes, I’m surprised you didn’t remember, little mister crushing-on-our-tour-manager,” Alex nudged his newly gay band mate, smiling at him. Rian, for the first time all night, returned the smile.
“Shuddup,” Rian cheekily mumbled, looking at the ground coyly and shuffling his foot.
After that interesting little conversation, the two boys were beckoned on to the bus by a very irritated Vinny. This was normal though, Vinny was always irritated by something when he didn’t have his trusty bottle of Captain Morgan in his hand. Alex and Rian climbed the stairs to the bus, and began to walk towards their bunks. Right as they were about to enter that center hallway, Rian hissed at Alex.
“Alex!” He whispered.
“What?” Alex whispered back in much the same way. He was probably mocking Rian, like he usually did, but now was no time to analyze speech patterns.
“Uhm…he… is watching a movie in the back lounge,” Rian pointed at an adorable Matt, half-sprawled out on a couch in the back lounge of the bus watching what appeared to be a Disney movie. Typical.
“What are you waiting for? Go get’m hot stuff!” Alex rasped back at Rian.
“Butbut…but…but…” Rian sputtered.
“Go.” Alex commanded, his voice almost at a full volume. With a little bit of hesitation, Rian began to walk down the seemingly endless hallway to the back lounge, where Matt was wide awake watching his movie. As Rian neared the couch where he was laying, his steps got smaller and he was getting more and more nervous. This was a bit overwhelming.
Rian halted behind the rather dirty piece of furniture for a couple seconds to gain a small shred of his composure before walking casually around the opposite end of the couch from Matt and sitting down. He sat there timidly for a couple seconds before Matt spoke up.
“Sup Ri?” He asked sweetly. Matt always had a sweet, innocent tone in his voice. Even when he was angry. That was one of the main things Rian liked about him.
“Nothing. Mind if I sit here? I’m not tired yet, thought I’d join ya,” That kind of all came out at once. Rian had meant to spread it out into multiple sentences, but nerves got the best of him. Smooth.
“Nope, s’alright with me,” Matt readjusted his body slightly so that his thighs were resting on Rian’s lap. Why he did this Rian wasn’t so sure, but this wasn’t the time to question. This little bit of contact made his head spin and his heart race. Damn, the other boy was so cute; just laying there, arms folded against his chest and head turned towards the large television. He looked so cuddly and adorable, Rian just wanted to lie down and snuggle the living hell out of the boy.
About twenty minutes had passed, and Rian was just about to burst with tension and anxiety and every other emotion he had. His heart was somehow still racing as fast as ever, and he was still just as intently focused on the adorable boy laying across his lap. Subconsciously, he started to stroke and knead at the tour manager’s thigh. Rian readjusted himself so that he was leaning just a little bit closer to his crush.
“Rian?” Matt’s small voice piped up.
“Yeah?” Rian responded, looking to his crush while still stroking the boy’s thigh.
“What’re you going?” It then dawned on Rian that he was stroking a place on the boy that was dangerously close to his genitals.
“Uh…I…sorry,” Rian quickly withdrew his hands, placing them across his chest timidly. Well, this was mighty embarrassing.
“No, no,” Flyzik sat up, adjusting his position so that he was sitting criss-cross on the couch, right next to Rian. Matt’s knees were making a fair amount of contact with the drummer, which he enjoyed, “That felt nice. Just y’know, you’ve never been the affectionate one. If you wanna get your cuddle ‘n shit on, I could go for that.” Matt accompanied this suggestion with a light smile, and Rian instantly complied.
“Uh, sure thing,” Oh God, he was so nervous. Rian could feel his heart pounding out of his chest and his knees nearly trembling as Matt snaked his arms around Rian’s waist. He let out a hopefully unnoticed and very shaky sigh was Matt rested his head in the crook of Rian’s neck. The tension was just too much. The manager was just too cute for his own good, and so cuddly…
The two sit like that watching the movie (or not really in Rian’s case) for a couple more minutes before Matt lifted up his head. Curious as to why, Rian turned his head to look at Matt.
“You okay?” Matt asked, seeming concerned.
“Uh, yeah, why?” Crap. Had Matt noticed Rian’s nerves?
“Well, I can feel your heart beat and you’re kinda shaking. You okay?” Matt looked so concerned. Damn, in this close proximity it was the most adorable thing Rian had ever seen; the boy’s eyes shone with some sort of caring brilliance that was just ridiculously cute, and not to mention just his whole face in itself was beautiful. And it was so close to Rian’s too. Wait. That was it. They were close. Their faces were inches away from each other. Rian’s lips were but two inches from Matt’s. And they were at just that perfect proximity to each other. It was now or never. If Rian was going to get a kiss, it had to be now.
Without hesitation, Rian pressed his lips hungrily against Matt’s, with the boy still wrapped around his muscular torso. Even though the kiss was forced, it was incredible. The way Matt’s soft, moist, inviting lips fit perfectly against his own felt just so…right. Like everything in the world was okay for those couple seconds. It felt like the world stopped, but there were fireworks going off inside Rian’s head. He had never felt that much from just a kiss before. Pulling away was something he was reluctant to do, but rational thought began to take over.
When Rian pulled away and opened his eyes, his stomach sank to his feet. Matt looked utterly shocked. He couldn’t tell it the shock was good or bad, but Matt looked shocked. What if it was bad shock? Rian probably just messed everything up. Crap. He shouldn’t have been so impulsive. The look on Matt’s face was just discouraging. Without saying a word, and with a mortified expression on his face, Rian hastily got up of the couch and walked with his head hung over to his bunk. He promptly slid under the covers, hoping that he could just fall asleep right away and pretend that didn’t happen come sunrise.
Of course, Rian being the over-thinker that he is just had to keep running that scene through his mind over and over again. Every single thing he did wrong. Why did he have to be so stupid? It was going to be so awkward to face Matt again. And, just when he thought things couldn’t get worse, he felt a hand on his shoulder. Rian whipped around, only to see Matt standing there with a rather guilty expression on his face.
“Move over,” Mat commanded, forcing Rian to the opposite side of the bunk and laying himself down where Rian was previously.
“Why’re you here?” Rian mumbled, attempting to pull his blanket over his face and make everything go away. Matt stopped him, though.
“Cause I just wanted to, uhm, do this,” Spitting out the last couple words in a rush, Matt pressed his lips against Rian’s. He held the kiss for a couple seconds, pushing his lips rather hard against the other man’s, and then pulled away. This, of course, left Rian with a very confused look about him.
“Butt…you…you looked so…when I…” This was confusing.
“I know, Ri. You just caught me off guard. I wasn’t really expecting you to, y’know, kiss me up just then. I didn’t even know you liked guys,” Matt tried to make himself sound eager for more kissing, because in reality, he was. But he wanted information out of Rian first.
“Well…I do. I’m gay,” This was becoming a lot easier to say for Rian.
“Since when?”
“Uhm, I told Alex about an hour ago… but otherwise I’m still ‘straight’” Rian put little air quotes around ‘straight’.
“Oh, well, good for you! And in which case,” Matt leaned his head in for another kiss. This time, they both got down to business, now that all the tension was out of the air. Rian quickly had both hands at Matt’s tiny hips, and Matt had both of his arms wrapped around Rian’s torso. They kissed for a few minutes like this, sort of exploring each other’s bodies while doing so. But, the bunk was pretty small so there was only so much they could do. Then, Rian felt Matt’s tongue trace at his bottom lip, begging for entrance into his mouth. The drummer quickly complied, parting his lips and groaning into the increasingly passionate kiss, allowing Matt’s tongue to explore within his mouth. While Matt was doing so, Rian found something interesting; his makeout partner was still wearing his lip ring. He could have fun with this. Rian took the small metal ring in between his teeth and began to tug gently at it, making Matt withdraw his tongue and tilt his head back, causing Rian to tug harder. He could tell Matt really liked having his lip ring played with.
Rian took his hands and slid them down a little bit farther to Matt’s ass. With one hand on each cheek, Rian pulled the manager’s pelvis towards his own and now feeling the other boy’s erection press against his leg. Matt groaned slightly at the feeling of this, and the drummer accompanied him when the other started moving his leg up and down just slightly, creating a wonderful amount of friction against their achingly hard erections.
Getting a little bit carried away, Rian drew Matt’s whole bottom lip into his mouth and began to nip and suck hungrily at it. Not forgetting the other boy’s lip ring, of course.
The pair continued to make out like this for several more minutes before Matt pulled away. It seemed as though the boys had gotten a bit too caught up in each other - literally. They were really nothing more than a tangled mass of limbs. Rian had one of Matt’s legs in between his, and both of their arms ended up wrapped around some part of the other’s body. Rian didn’t mind, though. It was nice.
Matt giggled a little childish giggle that made Rian’s heart melt.
“Wow,” Rian commented, “That was fun,” He made sure to draw out the ‘u’ in ‘fun’.
“Hmmm,” Matt sighed in a satisfied manner and smiled at Rian, “Yeah. Now I should probably go to bed, it’s a bit late,” As Matt began to attempt to get out of the bunk, Rian tightened his grip on the other boy’s waist.
“You can…uh…stay here for the night…i-if you want to,” Rian asked nervously.
“Oh, sure!” Matt didn’t seem to have any complaints about this. He turned himself around so that he was in prime spooning position, and let Rian wrap his big, muscular arms around his tiny waist. Relaxing into the feeling of the other boy’s chest, Matt began to quickly doze off into a deep sleep, leaving Rian to marvel at the adorable man that he now had snuggled against him. He was a beautiful creature, Rian decided. He smelled so good, too, as Rian nuzzled his scruffy face into the other boy’s neck. He nestled his head against the other boy’s and tightened his grip around Matt’s waist just the right amount, and fell asleep holding what he could soon call his first boyfriend. Everything felt so right.
Author: evanlikesthrust
Rating: Part 1: PG-13 | Part 2: NC-17
Pairing: Rian Dawson/Matt Flyzik (Ryzik, if you are so inclined)
Summary: During the MSP tour, the drummer discovers some abnormal feelings for All Time Low's tour manager.
Disclaimer: This is false, title belongs to ATL
It was about half an hour after the Milwaukee stop of the My Small Package Tour, and the boys of All Time Low were walking out of the small venue to go do signings for some of their dedicated fans that had stayed after the show. They always loved meeting their fans and interacting and talking with them; all the boys could agree that next to playing music, it was their favorite part of their ‘careers’, dare they even call it a career.
As most of the exhausted and sweaty teenagers began to clear out, the boys finished up signing and talking to their few remaining fans and walked toward the bus. They were all exhausted; although the tour had not been that long thus far, it was rather demanding. Their sets were a lot longer than usual and all the technical issues they had faced had been a bit strenuous. But hey, this was the tour life.
Jack and Zack boarded the bus, quickly going for their bunks in order to lie down. Usually one or both of them would get a drink before bed, but today all they had their minds focused on was sleep.
As Alex placed his foot on the first step of the bus, he felt a hand grab him rather forcefully by the arm. He stopped in his tracks and turned around to see Rian grabbing his arm, with kind of a strained look on his face. This was very unusual for Rian, as he was usually peppy and happy and smiley, so this made Alex a bit worried.
“Hey Ri, what’s up?” Alex tried to put concern in his voice; Rian seemed like he needed it.
“Uhm, can I talk to you for a minute?” Rian sounded really upset. Alex was getting pretty concerned. This was a very abnormal occurrence, so something serious had to have been wrong.
“Yeah, sure, what’s wrong?” Alex stepped off the bus and turned around to face his band mate. Rian looked tense; he had since returned his arms to a defensive folded position across his chest, and he was kind of looking down at the ground.
“I…I don’t know how to say…” Rian stuttered nervously, rubbing the back of his neck timidly with one hand.
“Just say it, Ri, it’s okay. Whatever it is, you can trust me.”
“Uh…well…I’m gay.” This even took Rian by surprise, that he was able to spit it out without too much hesitation. But, he trusted Alex. They did live together, after all.
Alex didn’t say anything after that. He was shocked. Out of all the guys in the band, he wouldn’t have suspected Rian to be gay for one second. He even had a girlfriend. Or, probably didn’t anymore given the circumstances. But, regardless, this was so sudden and… random. Naturally, this took a bit for Alex to process. He was still trying to wrap his mind around this whole thing. A couple seconds after this surprising news, and a few moments of silence, Alex took a look at Rian. He could see tears start to well up in the boy’s eyes.
“Ri, what’s wrong?” He asked, pulling the drummer into big, loving hug. He wrapped his arms around the emotionally fragile boy’s back and squeezed just a bit, as he felt Rian’s face nuzzle into his neck. Not soon after, he felt the warm moisture of tears begin to collect around where Rian’s face was positioned on his shoulder.
“Hey, Rian. It’s okay,” Alex tried to comfort the drummer, pulling him away from his body in attempt to look him in the eyes, “I think it’s great that you told me, and I’m proud of you for coming out. Now why are you upset?” Rian wiped the tears from under his eyes and righted himself.
“Well…you never said anything when I first told you-,”
“Rian. It’s a lot to take in when one of my best friends tells me they’re gay, and I was just trying to process. I think it’s great, and my opinions of you won’t change. Now what else?” Alex could see that his recent sentiments had made Rian a tad happier. But, the boy still looked distraught.
“Er, nothing,” By the way Rian carried himself, Alex would tell he was hiding something.
“Ri, come on.”
“Uh…well…I kind of…have feelings for someone?” Rian added an upward inflection at the end of his sentence.
“Really? That’s great!” Alex accompanied these congratulations with a loving pat on the back.
“Yeah, but…” the tears started again, and Rian attempted to shield his face from Alex’s view with one hand, the other still gripped tightly around his own waist.
“Wh…what’s so upsetting about that?” Alex asked kindly.
“Uhm…it’s like…who I have feelings for that’s…upsetting,” Rian sniffled.
“Well who is it?” this, for some reason, made Rian even more upset than he already was. The drummer pretty much collapsed onto his friend, the slight sniffles quickly evolving into light sobs as he wrapped himself around Alex.
“Tell me who it is, Rian. I’m sure that it’s okay, and I’m sure that you’d be able to get them. It’s okay,” Alex desperately tried to console Rian, rubbing his back slowly and letting him snuggle as much as the drummer needed to. After a minute or so of consoling, and after Rian had pretty much stopped crying, he gave a response.
“Matt.”
“Really?” Alex righted Rian from his body, and looked at the boy with a grin, “Ri, that’s adorable! You could so get him! Why are you so upset about this?”
“Uh, what about Kendra?” Rian sniffled again, wiping his eye on the sleeve of his black t-shirt.
“Oh my God. They broke up at the beginning of the tour, silly boy!” Alex ruffled Rian’s hair - er, stubble - and smiled a huge smile at him.
“Really?” Rian’s face twisted into a smile, showing those brilliant white teeth of his.
“Yes, I’m surprised you didn’t remember, little mister crushing-on-our-tour-manager,” Alex nudged his newly gay band mate, smiling at him. Rian, for the first time all night, returned the smile.
“Shuddup,” Rian cheekily mumbled, looking at the ground coyly and shuffling his foot.
After that interesting little conversation, the two boys were beckoned on to the bus by a very irritated Vinny. This was normal though, Vinny was always irritated by something when he didn’t have his trusty bottle of Captain Morgan in his hand. Alex and Rian climbed the stairs to the bus, and began to walk towards their bunks. Right as they were about to enter that center hallway, Rian hissed at Alex.
“Alex!” He whispered.
“What?” Alex whispered back in much the same way. He was probably mocking Rian, like he usually did, but now was no time to analyze speech patterns.
“Uhm…he… is watching a movie in the back lounge,” Rian pointed at an adorable Matt, half-sprawled out on a couch in the back lounge of the bus watching what appeared to be a Disney movie. Typical.
“What are you waiting for? Go get’m hot stuff!” Alex rasped back at Rian.
“Butbut…but…but…” Rian sputtered.
“Go.” Alex commanded, his voice almost at a full volume. With a little bit of hesitation, Rian began to walk down the seemingly endless hallway to the back lounge, where Matt was wide awake watching his movie. As Rian neared the couch where he was laying, his steps got smaller and he was getting more and more nervous. This was a bit overwhelming.
Rian halted behind the rather dirty piece of furniture for a couple seconds to gain a small shred of his composure before walking casually around the opposite end of the couch from Matt and sitting down. He sat there timidly for a couple seconds before Matt spoke up.
“Sup Ri?” He asked sweetly. Matt always had a sweet, innocent tone in his voice. Even when he was angry. That was one of the main things Rian liked about him.
“Nothing. Mind if I sit here? I’m not tired yet, thought I’d join ya,” That kind of all came out at once. Rian had meant to spread it out into multiple sentences, but nerves got the best of him. Smooth.
“Nope, s’alright with me,” Matt readjusted his body slightly so that his thighs were resting on Rian’s lap. Why he did this Rian wasn’t so sure, but this wasn’t the time to question. This little bit of contact made his head spin and his heart race. Damn, the other boy was so cute; just laying there, arms folded against his chest and head turned towards the large television. He looked so cuddly and adorable, Rian just wanted to lie down and snuggle the living hell out of the boy.
About twenty minutes had passed, and Rian was just about to burst with tension and anxiety and every other emotion he had. His heart was somehow still racing as fast as ever, and he was still just as intently focused on the adorable boy laying across his lap. Subconsciously, he started to stroke and knead at the tour manager’s thigh. Rian readjusted himself so that he was leaning just a little bit closer to his crush.
“Rian?” Matt’s small voice piped up.
“Yeah?” Rian responded, looking to his crush while still stroking the boy’s thigh.
“What’re you going?” It then dawned on Rian that he was stroking a place on the boy that was dangerously close to his genitals.
“Uh…I…sorry,” Rian quickly withdrew his hands, placing them across his chest timidly. Well, this was mighty embarrassing.
“No, no,” Flyzik sat up, adjusting his position so that he was sitting criss-cross on the couch, right next to Rian. Matt’s knees were making a fair amount of contact with the drummer, which he enjoyed, “That felt nice. Just y’know, you’ve never been the affectionate one. If you wanna get your cuddle ‘n shit on, I could go for that.” Matt accompanied this suggestion with a light smile, and Rian instantly complied.
“Uh, sure thing,” Oh God, he was so nervous. Rian could feel his heart pounding out of his chest and his knees nearly trembling as Matt snaked his arms around Rian’s waist. He let out a hopefully unnoticed and very shaky sigh was Matt rested his head in the crook of Rian’s neck. The tension was just too much. The manager was just too cute for his own good, and so cuddly…
The two sit like that watching the movie (or not really in Rian’s case) for a couple more minutes before Matt lifted up his head. Curious as to why, Rian turned his head to look at Matt.
“You okay?” Matt asked, seeming concerned.
“Uh, yeah, why?” Crap. Had Matt noticed Rian’s nerves?
“Well, I can feel your heart beat and you’re kinda shaking. You okay?” Matt looked so concerned. Damn, in this close proximity it was the most adorable thing Rian had ever seen; the boy’s eyes shone with some sort of caring brilliance that was just ridiculously cute, and not to mention just his whole face in itself was beautiful. And it was so close to Rian’s too. Wait. That was it. They were close. Their faces were inches away from each other. Rian’s lips were but two inches from Matt’s. And they were at just that perfect proximity to each other. It was now or never. If Rian was going to get a kiss, it had to be now.
Without hesitation, Rian pressed his lips hungrily against Matt’s, with the boy still wrapped around his muscular torso. Even though the kiss was forced, it was incredible. The way Matt’s soft, moist, inviting lips fit perfectly against his own felt just so…right. Like everything in the world was okay for those couple seconds. It felt like the world stopped, but there were fireworks going off inside Rian’s head. He had never felt that much from just a kiss before. Pulling away was something he was reluctant to do, but rational thought began to take over.
When Rian pulled away and opened his eyes, his stomach sank to his feet. Matt looked utterly shocked. He couldn’t tell it the shock was good or bad, but Matt looked shocked. What if it was bad shock? Rian probably just messed everything up. Crap. He shouldn’t have been so impulsive. The look on Matt’s face was just discouraging. Without saying a word, and with a mortified expression on his face, Rian hastily got up of the couch and walked with his head hung over to his bunk. He promptly slid under the covers, hoping that he could just fall asleep right away and pretend that didn’t happen come sunrise.
Of course, Rian being the over-thinker that he is just had to keep running that scene through his mind over and over again. Every single thing he did wrong. Why did he have to be so stupid? It was going to be so awkward to face Matt again. And, just when he thought things couldn’t get worse, he felt a hand on his shoulder. Rian whipped around, only to see Matt standing there with a rather guilty expression on his face.
“Move over,” Mat commanded, forcing Rian to the opposite side of the bunk and laying himself down where Rian was previously.
“Why’re you here?” Rian mumbled, attempting to pull his blanket over his face and make everything go away. Matt stopped him, though.
“Cause I just wanted to, uhm, do this,” Spitting out the last couple words in a rush, Matt pressed his lips against Rian’s. He held the kiss for a couple seconds, pushing his lips rather hard against the other man’s, and then pulled away. This, of course, left Rian with a very confused look about him.
“Butt…you…you looked so…when I…” This was confusing.
“I know, Ri. You just caught me off guard. I wasn’t really expecting you to, y’know, kiss me up just then. I didn’t even know you liked guys,” Matt tried to make himself sound eager for more kissing, because in reality, he was. But he wanted information out of Rian first.
“Well…I do. I’m gay,” This was becoming a lot easier to say for Rian.
“Since when?”
“Uhm, I told Alex about an hour ago… but otherwise I’m still ‘straight’” Rian put little air quotes around ‘straight’.
“Oh, well, good for you! And in which case,” Matt leaned his head in for another kiss. This time, they both got down to business, now that all the tension was out of the air. Rian quickly had both hands at Matt’s tiny hips, and Matt had both of his arms wrapped around Rian’s torso. They kissed for a few minutes like this, sort of exploring each other’s bodies while doing so. But, the bunk was pretty small so there was only so much they could do. Then, Rian felt Matt’s tongue trace at his bottom lip, begging for entrance into his mouth. The drummer quickly complied, parting his lips and groaning into the increasingly passionate kiss, allowing Matt’s tongue to explore within his mouth. While Matt was doing so, Rian found something interesting; his makeout partner was still wearing his lip ring. He could have fun with this. Rian took the small metal ring in between his teeth and began to tug gently at it, making Matt withdraw his tongue and tilt his head back, causing Rian to tug harder. He could tell Matt really liked having his lip ring played with.
Rian took his hands and slid them down a little bit farther to Matt’s ass. With one hand on each cheek, Rian pulled the manager’s pelvis towards his own and now feeling the other boy’s erection press against his leg. Matt groaned slightly at the feeling of this, and the drummer accompanied him when the other started moving his leg up and down just slightly, creating a wonderful amount of friction against their achingly hard erections.
Getting a little bit carried away, Rian drew Matt’s whole bottom lip into his mouth and began to nip and suck hungrily at it. Not forgetting the other boy’s lip ring, of course.
The pair continued to make out like this for several more minutes before Matt pulled away. It seemed as though the boys had gotten a bit too caught up in each other - literally. They were really nothing more than a tangled mass of limbs. Rian had one of Matt’s legs in between his, and both of their arms ended up wrapped around some part of the other’s body. Rian didn’t mind, though. It was nice.
Matt giggled a little childish giggle that made Rian’s heart melt.
“Wow,” Rian commented, “That was fun,” He made sure to draw out the ‘u’ in ‘fun’.
“Hmmm,” Matt sighed in a satisfied manner and smiled at Rian, “Yeah. Now I should probably go to bed, it’s a bit late,” As Matt began to attempt to get out of the bunk, Rian tightened his grip on the other boy’s waist.
“You can…uh…stay here for the night…i-if you want to,” Rian asked nervously.
“Oh, sure!” Matt didn’t seem to have any complaints about this. He turned himself around so that he was in prime spooning position, and let Rian wrap his big, muscular arms around his tiny waist. Relaxing into the feeling of the other boy’s chest, Matt began to quickly doze off into a deep sleep, leaving Rian to marvel at the adorable man that he now had snuggled against him. He was a beautiful creature, Rian decided. He smelled so good, too, as Rian nuzzled his scruffy face into the other boy’s neck. He nestled his head against the other boy’s and tightened his grip around Matt’s waist just the right amount, and fell asleep holding what he could soon call his first boyfriend. Everything felt so right.