So who wants a girlfriend that is a freak? Anyone ( Read more... )

Figured its time to update. I found out some things about Andy that I already knew had happened but it stung to hear it actually said out loud. If that makes sense? I'd been through several months of wallowing in my own self-built personal hell and then was smacked in the face with that one ( Read more... )

I really hate this song. It brings up a lot of bad emotions in me. I mean, I'm done and past a lot of what it reminds me of, but it reminds me of the way I felt back then and how much it crushed me inside and how fucked up it left me afterwards. I makes me think of my parents. It makes me think of past relationships. It makes me think of ( Read more... )

I can't tell you how much I hate the week and a half/week before that wonderful monthly issue every female has the pleasure of experiencing. I'm am a total and complete bitch, I am an emotional mess, I am a self-destructive, self-inflicted, one-of-a-kind disaster. I am exhausted by the time its over and then I have to deal with the aftermath of ( Read more... )

Long time no write, I apologize. For those of you who read and do not know, I hath returned to Iowa. Yes, I hate it, yes I'm leaving as soon as possible. :D ( Read more... )

I'm in Michigan. I have not updated recently beecause I've been extremely busy. We just arrived Friday, after much searching on the internet, much discussing with parents and between ourselves, and with much excitment about moving out of Iowa. We plan to get an apartment in Ypsilanti and I'll be attending Washtenaw Community College this ( Read more... )

So, I figured I'd update. I'm feeling aimless and pointless. The whole depression thing is kicking in again. I hate this. Its not as bad as it was before, but there will be times when I just feel so down, I don't want to move, I don't want to do anything but cry but I can't bring myself to do it. Poor Andy, last night he witnessed one of my ( Read more... )