leave it well enough alone and don't remember

[evalon]

oh god, i couldn't have made a bigger mess if i'd tried. and i did try, good christ i must've been completely out of my mind on tuesday. why oh why did Michael let me leave the house alone in a mood like that? but i know the answer; because it's what Michael does. he can read me like a book and he tries to respect me by giving me space when i need

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[evalon]

*flinches like she's been slapped in the face*

no, that doesn't make me feel better. and you did NOT prove her right, you did nothing wrong! and i tempted you, lord knows i couldn't have made it easy on you, but you did the right thing and you said no. I made things more complicated and fucked up, not you. and god, Ralph, it wasn't just that, you weren't just a warm body that would do....you came after me, you stood there and took it when i wouldn't stop about Paige and you...you were there for me. i was a mess and you didn't run away from me and there was something

[goomba_ralph]

Ev, you were there and you were touching me and you needed me, needed somethin, needed to feel. You were hurtin and not yourself, if you woulda been in your right mind none of that woulda happened. Thats why I say no. Not cause I didn't want you, you know that I wanted you. I wasn't thinkin about Joey, even though I love her, or that I'd be tankin my relationship with her. I said no cause I knew, when you were back to bein yourself, you'd hate me, yourself and the whole damn mess. I knew that I'd loose someone who got it.

*shruggin helplessly*

Looks like I shouldn't have bothered. Not like me sayin no is stoppin you from feelin all the shit I was tryin to save you from. So if you wanna feel sorry? Feel sorry for that. That you're freezin me out, and for what? For shit that didn't even happen, that we didn't even do wrong.

You love Michael, I love Joey. You and me are friends. Thats how it is. Or at least thats how it could be.

[evalon]

*speaks very quietly, more to herself*

i would not have hated you.

*takes a minute to regain her composure and makes herself look at him.*

alright. you didn't answer my question before; would you like me to get your information, and if so, how shall i deliver it to you?

[goomba_ralph]

*full range of emotions flash through him, but he's not gonna fight her on it. looks around the store room for something to write on and with. Jots down cell*

Call this number. Anytime. I'm the only one who answers it.

*goes to say more but closes mouth. turns away, voice quiet*

Be careful, Evalon. And thanks. You got no idea what it means for you to do this for me.

[evalon]

*takes the paper, careful not to touch him and nods before misting out, reappears in her car and uses her cell to call Isabella inside the bar*

hey, i'm out in my car. i think i'm done for the night, i'll call Eva's cell and make my excuses. um, about earlier, if you want to talk? i'll be at my condo for a while, just call my cell when you're leaving and i'll give you directions.