Love me like I Love you 12
Title: Love me like I Love you 12
Pairing: Taecyeon/Wooyoung, Junsu/Junho
Rating: PG-13, M
TaecWoo: Because of dance everything leads to disguising himself as a girl and loosing all his first. Life goes from normal to strange as Wooyoung gains a lover.
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"Wooyoung! Jang Wooyoung!"
I stopped quickly in my steps as I turned around and caught eyes with the guy I've been ignoring for two weeks and a half.
A pang of guilt suddenly overshadowed me as I looked away from Taecyeons eyes.
"Y...your back." I said.
There was a long silence.
"Umm....I...I didn't know....I'm-"
"I've been calling you. I called you everyday!" Taecyeon suddenly yelled.
I flinched and took a step back.
I still couldn't look at him.
The only thing keeping me from talking to him is the fact that I thought of breaking it off so quickly with him because of what happened.
I couldn't look him in the eye.
"I'm sorry..I've just been tired...and sleepy-"
"Your lying." Taecyeon interrupted me.
I didn't say anything.
"It's because of what happened. Soyoung knows now." he said.
I lifted my head quickly and we caught eyes for a few seconds.
This is when I realized exactly where we were.
Still in school where people were walking in and out.
Of course most people were gone but some still stayed to study.
"We shouldn't talk about this here hyung." I said as I looked around.
It may have only made him angrier because suddenly he grabbed my wrist.
I struggled but did not yell in fear we would gather attention.
Taecyeon pulled me all the way to the secluded back area of the school where we first met.
Big trees and bushes surrounded us everywhere as Taecyeon pushed me inside the mass of green.
I stumbled but caught myself in time to not fall.
I sighed and walked back a little as I lifted my head.
Taecyeon just stared at me.
I stared back. I didn't know what to say.
The guilt was taking over fast so I looked away.
"You really don't want to be with me." Taecyeon suddenly said.
I turned to him quickly.
"What?" I said.
"Stop playing with my feeling Wooyoung. I want you. I like you." Taecyeon said.
My heart started beating faster than it was earlier.
I stepped back and Taecyeon stepped forward.
We were just going deeper into the woods where no one could even hear us as Taecyeon yelled.
"Tell me right now! Stop playing with my feelings Jang Wooyoung!" Taecyeon yelled.
He grabbed my wrist again and all I could do was turn away from his gaze.
I yelled as Taecyeon suddenly pushed forward.
I stumble and felt myself falling back.
We fell with a hard thump of the ground, Taecyeon with his full body weight on top of me.
"Owww..." I groaned.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry." Taecyeon suddenly apologized.
I turned to him quickly.
He just kept apologizing and I quickly stopped him by putting hand on his mouth.
He stopped and stared down at me.
My heart started beating as I managed to look him straight in the eye without turning.
"It's my fault." I said.
Taecyeon looked down at me.
"I'm the one that should apologize. I have been ignoring your calls." I admitted.
My heart felt like it would burst.
"I was just scared and...ashamed." I said.
Taecyeon just continued looking down at me.
"When Soyoung found out.....the thoughts of breaking if off with you....I had a lot of those thoughts...that's why I can't look you in the eye." I said.
"I don't want to break it off with you. If I didn't like you just a little bit then I would never give you a chance...but...but I gave you a chance....and soon as this problem came.....I thought about breaking if off with you." I admitted as I turned my head away.
"I'm ashamed of that thought. I really am playing with your feelings. I'm sorry Taecyeon hyung...I'm really sorry." I said.
My hand was pulled away from his mouth and I was pulled into a hug.
"That's it....I'm not leaving you again." he said as his hug tightened.
"Huh?" I said.
"Ever time I leave you something bad happens and we fight when I get back. I'm not leaving you ever again." Taecyeon said.
"Don't be stupid hyung, your an idol." I said.
His hug tightened.
I groaned but didn't say anything for him to loosen his hug.
His hands went to my hair and suddenly he started kissing me.
"Is this alright?" he asked.
"...Yeah.." I said embarrassingly.
My forehead, my nose, my cheeks, everywhere on my face he kissed.
"Stop that." I said after a while.
"We.."
"We are still in school." Taecyeon finished my sentence for me.
"Yeah..." I said. "I'm sorry...for having those thoughts."
"It's okay Wooyoung." Taecyeon said.
A short silence passed.
Taecyeon didn't get up from me or release me from his hug.
We were still laying on the ground too.
"Your heavy." I said after a moment of silence.
Taecyeon didn't say anything.
I could feel his breathing on my neck as I tried to move.
He really didn't release me from the hug.
I sighed and relaxed my body.
"You know....we're like a drama or something." I said.
Taecyeon laughed.
"I'm serious. All of these things happening. It's like something off a drama. How we met. You saying you liked me. How we progress and then hit rock bottom again." I said.
"Do you like me?" Taecyeon suddenly asked.
A question totally not related to what I was saying earlier.
"That's sudden." I said.
He didn't say anything.
"Just like I told Soyoung...I wouldn't have ever given you a chance if I didn't have any feelings for you. When you were gone, I really meant it when I said I missed you."
His hug tightened.
I sighed.
"You really are annoying..." I whispered.
"What?" he suddenly said as he released me and lifted himself up to look at me.
We stared at each other for a few seconds before I quickly lifted my arm and pushed him back.
"Your so clingy." I said.
There was no response.
"You like too much skinship." I continued saying.
Still Taecyeon didn't say anything.
I started patting the dirt off my uniform.
"Look...I'm all dirty now. I can't wash them tonight." I said sighing.
Taecyeon still didn't say anything.
I lifted my head and we caught eyes.
He stood there silently.
"I'm surely in trouble. I bet Soyoung has been waiting for me for a long time. We should get going." I said as I started walking towards him.
I passed him by only seconds when he turned me around.
"What?" I said.
"I'm sorry if I'm so clingy but I just love you so damn much, it feels like my heart is going to explode."
I stared at him wide eyed.
Taecyeon lowered his head for a few seconds before taking hold of my hand and gently pulling it all the way to his chest.
I felt the beating of his heart increase with every beat as my face heated up.
I didn't know what to say of how to respond.
"You see how much you make me feel. I don't get it myself. Your a man. Why does my heart beat so fast and loud around you? Why do I get nervous? I get mad when I see you with other guys...when I see you smiling with your friends and you don't smile with me. I want to always touch you for some reason. I can't stop myself. I can't sleep because of you...Your always on my mind...When I dream it's with you and-"
"Stop."
My hand went to his mouth and covered it as my other hand covered my face.
I completely knew no way to respond or what to say to him.
My heart started beating fast and I wondered why.
We looked at each other and then I embarrassingly looked away.
"Soyoung....will be really mad at me." I finally said.
Taecyeon pulled my hand away and turned my head to face him.
I didn't stop him as he captured my lips in a deep kiss.
I relaxed into the kiss as he did what he wanted.
It usually is that way with him only kissing because I had no experience at all and I never want to embarrass myself.
"Hey.." I said out when he let me go for a few seconds.
But it didn't stop him as he captured my lips again.
I didn't know when or how but we ended up on the ground again.
"You really......are heavy....." I said again when he released my lips.
The kiss was becoming intense.
I started to loose my mind as I I covered my mouth from making any sound.
I could still feel Taecyeons heart beating loudly and fast against my chest.
He released my lips and started going lower.
I couldn't say anything now because I was loosing all sense I had.
My breath started coming out fast and uncontrollably as Taecyeon played around my neck.
I couldn't handle the kisses all too well.
"Hyung..." a weird sound escaped my lips and quickly I covered my mouth again.
For two reasons then, because of the weird sound and because Taecyeon suddenly bit me.
He actually bit me.
"Wha....what are you....that hurt." I groaned.
"Sorry." he mumbled in my ear as he continued, gently kissing the spot that hurt on my neck.
I sighed and willed my body to relax once more when I froze.
His hand.
His hand.
If I let him go any further and looks all sense we both will definitely end up without no cloths at the back of the shook building, in the bushes.
Taecyeon untugged my shirt from my pants quick before I could stop him.
He came back up and took hold of my lips.
'No...not like this....not out here....' I instantly thought as I lifted my hand for his.
A warm hand touched my stomach.
'No.' I thought. 'Wait.'
I began struggling now as I pulled away from the kiss quickly and pushed Taecyeon up with my free hand.
My other hand was gripped on his wrist.
Taecyeon slowly got up and covered his face.
"I'm sorry." he said. "I was out of control."
I didn't know what to say.
My breath was still a little out of control and I was trying to properly breath again.
A jumble of thoughts went through my head.
A lot about how I did not find what we just did any bit disgusting.
'Am I really...gay?' I thought, lost in my head in embarrassment.
"Woo?"
My chin was lifted.
Taecyeon and I looked into each others eyes for only a few seconds before we both looked away.
"I...Im sorry..."
We both stuttered out those words and I covered my face again.
"What should I do?" I suddenly said. "My heart is beating so fast." I said clutching my chest.
Taecyeon suddenly took hold of my hands and pulled me in a hug.
"I'm glad to hear that." he said.
I stared at the trees in front of me for a while before sighing and wrapping my arms around him.
Lightly, I smiled.
"Maybe we should...try it again....but not here." I whispered as I dug my face into Taecyeons shoulder.
I heard him laugh.
"Okay." he said.
'So annoying....idiot hyung...' I thought.
I didn't wait for more than a few minutes as I pushed Taecyeon away.
"I really am in trouble now." I said.
"I'll explain to Soyoung." Taecyeon said.
"I don't...." I paused. "I don't think she wants to see you right now." I said.
Taecyeon paused.
"No....before I go back to practice. I really want to talk to everyone. I've talked to you so now Soyoung." he said.
I stared at him.
"Let's go." he said walking past me.
I stared at his back for a few seconds before hurrying after him.
It seemed to have gotten dark when we got out of the woods.
Car lights and horns were going off as a lot more people started coming out of the school.
It took Taecyeon and I a while but we finally managed to find the angry Soyoung after Taecyeon called her.
"I'm so sorry..." I said.
"Don't you know I have work! Woo I've been waiting for more than twenty minutes...How-"
"It's my fault." Taecyeon suddenly spoke up.
We all tensed up as he spoke.
"I wanted to talk to him no matter what." Taecyeon said.
Soyoung didn't say anything.
"I want to talk to you too." he said.
Still Soyoung didn't say anything.
"It's kind of cold out here." Taecyeon said.
"I have work." she suddenly said.
"At the Restraunt right? I'll go with you. We can talk after you shift." he said.
Soyoung didn't say anything for a while.
"Get in." she said.
I obeyed and quickly got in, Taecyeon after me.
The ride was silent. Too silent.
Taecyeon took hold of my hand and I pulled it away and glared at him.
Nothing.
Absolutely nothing if Soyoung is besides us.
When we reached my apartment I was forced to get out.
"I'll call you." Taecyeon said.
I shook my head no and turned to Soyoung.
"I'll be asleep." I said.
"Tomorrow." Taecyeon said.
I nodded.
He reached out for a hug when I suddenly remembered what we did earlier and quickly stuck my hand out and grabbed his hand.
"Glad your back hyung." I said shaking his hand before hurriedly running away.
I felt a pang of gulit as I ran all the way inside my home and to my room.
I fell on the bed and yelled out.
"What is wrong with me?" I asked myself as I remembered Taecyeons face when I pulled my hand away and when I refused his hug.
"It's just hard." I whispered to myself. "It's hard to do it in front of her....."
A silence overtook me as I laid there.
I laid there for a long time before deciding to go take a shower.
I stayed in the shower for a long time before getting out.
My body felt refreshed but my mind still felt jumbled with thoughts.
On the same people and same problems.
Junho and Junsus kiss, Soyoung finding out, my parents out of al things once again, how Soyoung feels, how I feel, how Taecyeon feels, how I'm hurting Taecyeon.
I sighed and began my way to my room when the doorbell suddenly rung.
"Who-?" I wondered as I walked to the door.
"Who is it?" I asked.
"Junho."
I froze.
Junho.
My best friend Junho.
The one I have been with since we were so young.
....The one I saw kissing my other friend.
My hands paused at the door knob.
"Come on Woo....I know you've been avoiding me. Is it because of last time when I suddenly left? Please talk to me." Junho said.
I took a deep breath and lightly hit myself on the head before opening the door quickly.
"Hey!" I yelled as Junho pulled me into a hug.
I closed the door quickly before I was pulled backwards.
"Get off...get off me!" I yelled pushing him off.
I fixed the towel around my waist and glared at Junho.
He stared at me and apologized.
I sighed.
"I'm going to go get dressed." I said.
He nodded and I left.
Slowly I changed in my room, sat down for a long time on my bed and with heavy thinking, I went back out.
"Want anything to drink?" I asked Junho.
"I just want to talk." he said.
"Oh." I said as I headed into the kitchen just to pretend I had something to do.
Junho turned to me from the couch.
I poured myself a glass of water, drank it all and then poured some more.
"Why are you avoiding me?" Junho asked.
"Am I?" I asked.
"I have known you since we were younger. I know when your avoiding someone." Junho said.
I sighed.
"So what if I am?" I asked.
"What did I do? Your avoiding hyung too...he told me. He didn't want to come because he knows how you get. What's wrong Wooyoung why-"
"Look...Im fine. Just give me some time to think about some stuff alright. My mind is just going crazy right now alright? You understand that right? As a friend." I said as I walked to the sink and set my cup inside.
"Woo..."
I sighed.
"Your not making my thoughts go away." I said.
"Is it because I suddenly left last time." Junho said.
His voice sounded closer.
"Ho...I don't want to talk about-"
"Is it that? I'm really sorry I just...I suddenly didn't feel good and-"
"Just please stop." I said as I turned to him.
I was right, he was a few walks behind me. Not on the couch anymore.
A moment of silence passed between us.
I sighed.
"Fine."
"My mind have been jumbled up because Taecyeon, Soyoung, my parents, and....." I paused and let a few moments of silence pass.
"And why I saw my two best friends kiss...kissing." I said.
It may have blown a bomb right between the space in between us.
I sighed and walked to the couch.
"I'm guessing your happy now since I told you." I said.
There was silence.
"You should have just let me think about it more. I mean...my two best friends...has it always been like this and I didn't know? It was just hard because that night something also happened with Taecyeon and Soyoung...then I saw...maybe I was just too hurt. Am I not trustworthy?" I said.
"Woo..."
"I'm saying stupid things. Don't listen to me. I-"
"Wooyoung!" Junho screamed.
I stopped and lowered my head.
"What you saw..." Junho started but stopped.
I didn't say anything.
"Junsu hyung doesn't want you to know." Junho said.
That sort of hit a spot.
'Maybe I really am untrustworthy.' I thought as I got up and walked into my room.
I fell on my bed with a thump.
A few minutes later and my door opened.
"It started with me." Junho said. "I told him I liked him...I have always liked hyung."
There was a short silence.
"When I first told him, he refused me a lot because he's not gay. Remember during our trip to Lotte world? I was sad because he rejected me....but...after a while....he started responding to me. I didn't want to tell you at first but then I wanted to tell you so bad because you are my best friend but hyung didn't want me to tell you so we fought a lot about it. Then I felt ashamed and didn't know how you would act if I told you." Junho said.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
There was a moment of silence.
"I thought you would be disguste-"
"Disgusted? Do you really think I'm such a horrible friend? Am I not dating Taecyeon hyung too! Why couldn't you trust me? I'm just...Im just a bit hurt that you didn't trust me. I thought we were best friends."I said.
A long silence passed.
"I've...I've been wanting to talk to you...about Soyoung about Taecyeon...that night I wanted to talk! I wanted to talk and you just suddenly left with hyung...you said you weren't feeling good. When I came to your place. You...you....you two....I was just really hurt and shocked out of my mind." I said.
A long silence passed.
"I don't care if your dating hyung. I don't care that he's a guy as long as you like him. Isn't that what you told me? As long as you like the person right?" I said.
Junho didn't say anything.
"I'm not mad...Just give me until tomorrow. Give me some time to think about everything." I said.
"I'm sorry Wooyoung." Junho said.
"I said I'm not mad stop apologizing." I said getting up.
Junho lowered his head and I got up and walked to him.
"I'm...Taecyeon hyung and I are...you know...So why did you not want to tell me?" I asked.
Junho didn't reply.
I sighed and pulled him into a hug.
"I'm sorry I've been avoiding you. I always run away from problems." I said.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you about hyung and I." Junho said.
We stood there for a while hugging before we both walked to my bed and fell on it.
We laid side by side staring at the ceiling.
"Woo? You can tell me now...if you want. What happened." Junho said.
I sighed and shook my head as I got up.
"Soyoung knows now." I said.
Junho got up and looked at me.
"How?" he asked.
"Stupid Taecyeon hyung decided to leave me a love message on the phone. Soyoung heard it before I could delete it." I said.
"I'm sorry." Junho said.
I sighed.
"They're are talking at her work now. I was so confused when she found out. I ran out with no jacket to your place. That's how I found out...then I met this old lady and she said same sex relationships are taboo and she does not like them but it seems I was giving off vibes that I liked Taecyeon so much that she said as long as I like him." I said.
"Wow..." Junho said.
"Yeah...then when he came back...I found myself avoiding him again....running from the problems....so he came after me....we made up but I still feel really nervous when Soyoung is around." I said.
"Because she likes him." Junho said.
I nodded.
"But she told me not to break up with him." I said.
"She did?" Junho asked.
I laughed.
"And that's what I don't understand because she obviously still likes him....it makes me nervous around Taecyeon too...I don't know what to do....and I kind of...I kind of promised him we could go further in this relationship when he's back....now he's back and wants to do more...I'm more nervous then ever....not even what I saw on your computer is helping me. I don't know what to do when he touches me....No....no it's not like I'm disgusted....just nervous way nervous...the thought of Spyoung comes up....I don't know how to tell him...why am I talking like this? I sound like a girl...." I said stopping my words.
"All this has been going through you head." Junho said.
"Yeah." I said nodding.
We stared at each other.
"When we....when Junsu hyung and I first....I was nervous too....especially nervous because....hyung is not ga....he's not like that at all. He likes girls. It was really hard and I had to do everything when we started out..."
My face started heating up at Junhos words and I covered my face with a pillow as he continued.
"But once we both got used to it. I'm not nervous anymore and neither is he. He actually...goes first now." Junho said.
"Oh..." I said.
"Are you embarrassed?"
"Yah! I'm a few days older than you." I said lifting my head and glaring.
"But you have no experience." Junho said.
"Yah!" I yelled.
Junh laughed as I threw my pillow at him and fell on the bed with a deep sigh.
"Hey...Junho?"
"Hm?"
"Do you think I should...you know...let him go on?" I said covering my face.
"What?" Junho said.
"Today...we almost web further than just kissing." I admitted.
"What!" Junho yelled.
"Shh..." I said covering my face.
"We almost did but I stopped him.
"And he bit you." Junho said.
"What!" I yelled getting up quick.
Junho pointed to his neck.
I felt my face suddenly heat up.
"No....that....that idiot! Soyoung must of saw!" I yelled.
I started worrying when Junho took my hand and pulled my head to look at him.
"Don't worry. Unless your laying down it's not visible. But it really is red. Taecyeon hyung really is a pervert." Junho said.
I covered my face in embarrassment.
"Well? What was that question again?" Junho asked.
I fell back on the bed with a deep breath.
"Should I let him go on?" I asked.
"What do you mean by that?" Junho asked.
"You know....I mean...."
I paused and clenched my fist.
I saw something on how it's done on your computer I mean...I have so much...questions but I'm embarrassed and scared.....it looked like it hur....hurt....why does it have to be there...and I don't have any experience at all! What happens when he becomes frustrated because I wont let him continue...I sometimes don't even let him kiss...." I paused.
"What should I do?" I said sighing.
Junsu hyu....I mean...me and my boy...friend...." Junho paused.
"Go on its okay." I said wanting to know more.
"Because I'm young and he's older and we are both male we didn't do anything for a while. But what surprised me was...Jun...my boyfriend...he looked up how to do everything himself so when it came-"
"Stop!" I yelled as I covered my heated face.
"I'm imagining things." I admitted.
"Don't imagine it pervert!" Junho yelled as he hit me.
"Then don't tell me that stuff!" I yelled.
"But you want to know!" Junho yelled.
"Not all that!" I yelled.
"What do you want me to do Wooyoung!?" he yelled.
"I don't know!" I yelled back. "I don't know...I don't know...." I kept repeating these words out loud.
A short silence passed between us.
"How long should I make him wait?" I asked.
"As long you need. You just started going out. Don't rush things." Junho said.
"But...things rush on their own..." I said.
A short silence passed.
"When he...touches me...sometimes I loose my mind. It may be why I stop him early. I get so side tracked that if I don't stop him then I really will let him do anything." I said.
A short silence passed.
"I'm talking like a girl again. What should I do?" I said.
"If you love him...then you can go on. But right now you like him right?" Junho asked.
"Yes..." I mumbled.
"Then you don't have to go all the way. You can do things but you don't have to go all the way."
"Things?" I said as my face heated.
"Leave it to Taecyeon hyung. I'm sure he's old and experienced enough to know how to handle everything." Junho said.
"You think so?" I asked.
"Yeah....now lets stop talking about this." Junho said.
I lifted my head and it turns out while I was blushing he was also blushing.
"Sorry..." I apologized.
He nodded.
I looked away and fell on the bed.
"I'm still annoyed that you didn't tell me about you and Junsu hyung." I said after a moment of silence.
"So you need time to think about it right? You said until tomorrow." Junho said.
I nodded.
Another silence passed.
"I'm going to sleep before Soyoung comes." I said.
"Your avoiding her?" Junho asked.
"I have to." I silently said.
"But you said she said to not break up with him." Junho said.
"But Ho...she's disgusted." I said. "It disgusts her...I can't look her in the face right now. It's already hard enough t I look Taecyeon in the face..." I said sighing.
A short silence passed.
Junho nodded and sighed too.
"Should I leave now?"
"If you want." I said.
"Your going to sleep?" Junho asked.
I nodded.
"Should I sleep over?" he asked.
"Would you mind?" I asked.
"Of course I'll sleep over!" Junho said smiling.
I laughed and pushed him.
"Stop acting like you have a crush on me or something." I said.
"Yah! Who would have a crush on you!" Junho yelled.
I yelled back and threw my pillow at him.
He laughed and grabbed an extra towel from my closet.
"I'll be back." he said.
I nodded.
"Just grab whatever cloths." I said.
He nodded and I watched as he left my room.
"I'm glad." I whispered smiling before I sighed and snuggled into my bed.
I didn't know when Junho came back because I really did fall asleep.